CyberneticShotokan 2022-11-10 01:40:45

If you want a summation of what happened without going on my Twitter, here’s the Bullet Points.

*Been interacting with VTubers because the Concept Fascinates and Excites me. It has been Very Fun/Fulfilling.

*Twitter gets upset about Lolis again because it’s Fucking Bored despite all the Work/Fun it could be doing.

*VTuber I don’t know made a Loli Smash or Pass List.

*VTubers I’ve been Interacting with are calling people who like Lolis Pedos and Think they’re Badass Rebels for being against Real Pedophilia.

*I Like Lolis, have since I was a Kid. I Love Cutesy Aesthetics.

*I unfortunately am a Victim of SA from a Young Age, but I’ve mostly put that Trauma behind me because frankly I don’t have time anymore to feel Misery of it.

*Can usually ignore it and even laugh at a good Anti-Loli Joke. But seeing these people who I’ve been having pleasant conversations with say all this Shit.

*Not wanting to Explode with Rage at someone I clearly and calmly make my stance known on somebody’s post.

*I am met with Unbelievable Kindness, but from people I haven’t Talked with.

*Next Day. I was Worried it’d be a Shitstorm.

*Just another day on Twitter.

*Seeing more people agree with my Stance. But not mentioning me.

*I don’t give a Shit if you like Lolis, I don’t give a Shit if you don’t. Just like how most Horror Fans aren’t looking to Harm People, a lot of Loli Enjoyers don’t wanna Hurt Kids. There will always be Exceptions so a bit of Vigil against it is Healthy.

*Ths entire community is going on now like nothing’s happened. With Varying Degrees of “Oh gee I’m so sick of Drama. Can’t we all just Love Eachother?”

*I’m left stunned but honestly relieved to not Miserate about this as much anymore.

*Had a mostly very good day.

*Then at Sundown. I Have the Worst Panic Attack I’ve Ever Had (Which Have Only Started Last Year)

*Pour my heart out to my Mother as I let the Dizziness fade and get ready to Sleep.

*Wake up again Two or So Hours ago. Still just another Day.

*”Whatever I guess. Picked a Good Time to take a break”

And here we are now.

If my confession cause the VTuber Community to take a Big Drink of Real Life and really think about what they Say and Do.

Good. In fact, I kinda Hope it does.

Even if I’m just reduced to another Video Essay Subject people will forget about.

CyberneticShotokan 2022-11-10 01:47:18

One more thing. A Funny Joke I Made That Sums Up The Hypocrisy (Though Not Even Touching On LewdTubers Interacting With Kids)

“Ugh you like Loli! You Disgusting Filth, you must actually wanna **** Kids!”

*goes to VTuber Friends*

“Uwu, Peg me hard, Mommy and Daddy! **** your little Dino-Nuggie Obsessed Toy!~”

CyberneticShotokan 2022-11-10 02:14:34

An Additional Addendum: The Person who’s post I commented on has been Very Kind and Understanding. Even though I don’t know them at all.

The Kindness of Humanity will always Invigorate me when I’m Drowning in my Mind.

CyberneticShotokan 2022-11-10 04:20:15

Final Addendum Remake If I haven’t mentioned it there were others too, One also in particular, who showed support. I’m still kinda reeling, but I’m Appreciative. I talked to one in the comments first and then OP to apologize for basically using that Post as a Soapbox. They were both very kind. Anyway it’s Time that I stop Posting unless Necessary for a bit. Few weeks Time, maybe even a Single Week. But I need Time to Process this. I’ve Appreciated all the Appreciation and Kindness shown to me at this Point in my Career. This is definitely a Turning Point. It’s not like I’m special in any of this Distress. It’s unfortunate but familiar to many people. But like I said I just want to be treated like any other Artist. Person really. So I need to really consider if I want to continue right now. I’m Not Quitting. But I must rethink much. Frankly I might just be Overthinking this part, Ideally it’ll just be like that Family Guy but “See, they’re old news” “Peter!”

Sorry that was a bit inappropriate, I just keep finding Funny Anecdotes. Anyways

I just want to keep going about things in a similar fashion as before. Because I’ve put this behind me for the Most Part. But it being public is obviously a lot to handle. So, Good Luck Folks. I Hope to return with this Weight lifted. It’s not the way I wanted to address this, but it is Slightly Cathartic among all the Anxiety. I wish to just never Address this again unless needed. Like I’ve said, for the most part I’ve Conquered that Pain. But Creative Freedom is One of the most important things to me, since Childhood. And this argument especially hurts can I can handle Jokes, but trying to Convince your Audience that people’s Art is Harmful. Especially in this Csse. Irritates me already. But this One Stings the Most because I was into the Aesthetic already with or without that Trauma; and trying to say that because I still like it as an Adult (Not Even As Much And Not Just For The Sake Of Lewd, How Bout That The Kid Grew Out Of Liking The Childlike/Shortstack Aesthetic A Bit) I would want to Inflict that Pain to someone else Legitimately makes all that shit flare back up, with a combination of “imaburdeimaburdenimaburden”. I can usually handle it for the most part, but it just got too much to handle with some of what could’ve been and Hell even could still be friends say that. Who woulda guess stepping into the VTuber Community could be Toxic.

I kid it’s been Fun for the Vast Majority just like Ms Career.

But I genuinely thought after Edgerunners we’d be done with this petty argument. But whatever. People’x tensions are kinda high anyway so it’s understandable. I’d rather this then Pure Unregulated Ignorance to the potential of People who like any Edgy Shit like this or Slashers to want to Hurt People or Diddle Kiddles. I’m just sick of this argument in particular. Because frankly it’s the Thing that makes me Relive that stuff the Most. So if I do get any stupid fucking pity point privileges if I come back. I’d just want you to not make that Argument around me. Jokes are Fine! I think you can Joke About anything as long as you use the Edgy Stuff for a Actually Funny or Good Point. Joke within reason bout it if ya want. But it’s something I’m sick of hearing as a Legitimate Point.

Anyway I’m Fucking Rambling At This Point. And I’ll likely have to adjust these Age Ratings later. But right now I just want to relax in real life, and maybe Sleep again soon. I Like That Idea.

But like I said, Good Luck out there. And again, Thanks for the Frankly Amazing “Career” I’ve Reached at this point. I never thought I’d have gotten this far in this Ridiculously Short Amount of Time. It’s been some of the most Fulfilling Stuff I’ve Done in my Life.