One More Thing.

Just to kinda settle this while I’m level-headed. I’ll be gone at least a month or until springtime. And I’ll still be drawing and planning creative projects out at the very least. Today was fairly decent, we’re all just trying to pull ourselves together.

Had some fun and good times the last few days together as well. Checked out Secret Level, that Witcher “OVA”, and the first few episodes of the new Spider-Man Series (It’s Really Good) and kept eachother company when awake.

I finally cried my eyes out this morning before I slept. It’s absolutely unfair, but we gave her a good long life and comforted her pups to the absolute best we could. And finally bawling felt better than the cold and malice filled depression I was in. Still devastated, but better.

I might pop into my Art Accounts just to check out newer work, drowning in Creativity and Study usually helps a lot. But until I return I’m gonna be ghosting around quietly if I’m around.

Trying to balance my Love and Hate for Existence again. Same Old Shit It’s Been Really.

This was written over the course of the night uploading this. Finished now in the early morning.

Unfortunately the pups have joined their mother. We’ve all been exhausting ourselves tending to them. The living mother and her pups are doing great, thriving even. But sadly the other litter just degraded after seeming relatively fine. The Healthiest just passed.

This has been some of the hardest few days of all our lives. I finally just cried now.

I’m going to spend the next few weeks like I’ve been w/ Family. It hasn’t been Entirely Miserable like I’ve said before but it’s been so hard. I imagine I’ll be gone for a month or two. Bye ✌️

Correction:

The Pup is still here, but sadly it’s likely that she won’t make it.

I’m really hoping since she’s the strongest but I don’t know.

She fought for 2 hours after this. But then fell asleep one more time peacefully just a bit ago.

This’ll be my last update until I return. I’ll have more time because the First Litter/Mother are very healthy, but I wrote this while crying. See you around Springtime.

Live Life.

I need to be gone for a while.

One of the Mothers died. Her condition unexpectedly got much worse. She just passed before we could get her to the vet. My Sister and Father took it very hard. First time I heard him cry.

I feel absolutely empty, except for wanting to help them.

Goodbye for now.

Edit. 10:42, 2/14/25: I don’t know how long I’ll be away.

This Decade has taken away so many loved ones from me. Animal and Person. Unfortunately, Death has always lingered around me it seems. But this decade I’ve lost loved ones nearly back to back each year. Suddenly. Ones I’ve loved for years.

Losing connections to my childhood, experiencing the most painful parts of growing up again and again.

Frankly I’m scared I haven’t cried yet. I haven’t been totally miserable all day. I’ve managed to even have some laughs.

But I’ve felt Cold, Empty, and Angry all day.

I don’t know how long I’ll be away.

But I need to take care of my Family, and not let this sadness and emptiness pause my Life.

It’s been this same damn cycle for my entire Adulthood so far. But I’ll be damned if it consumes me like it has. I’ll catch you later. Goodbye.

The part that hurts the most. Is that I prayed, begged for it not to happen. But God didn’t listen. And now I’m hearing pups cry out for a Mother who’s no longer there. But instead of making me cry, it’s boring a hole into my chest.

I want to Kill God, and Death.

That’s a bit too shitty of a note to potentially leave for weeks on. No matter how true.

Take care of yourselves folks.

I’ll be alright, so will my Family. It was just so sudden and unfair, but we’ve had her a long time and she had a Good Life. The Pups are Strong too.

And the Mother of the other litter is taking care of them too. We’re all working as a unit like we do.

Anyway that’s enough for now.

I’ll likely be back in a few weeks. Not sure how long exactly but however long is needed. I’ll still work on stuff as well.

Take Care

Ok little update before I Log Off for the Night. Making this into a Newgrounds News Post (Hi) too so I can reshare it for the time being when necessary. Nothing too huge, but those dogs of mine I was talking about have given birth now. Still gonna be Puppysitting/Housekeeping.

But, the Mothers are doing good, are taking care of the pups well, and my other dogs are being mindful. For now, I’ll have a bit more Time than I’ve been expecting. Gonna help take care of ‘em until we rehome ‘em. When/If they’re grown and still around I’ll be occupied again.

But for now the shit’s calmed down a bit around here. ‘Bout to focus on a few different things with my Art Shit that I’ll fill you in on here. 

• Renovating My Socials

• Looking Into Tech I’ll Need

• Doing Some More Random Art

• Working On Art Series

• Edgy Art Arc II

The Main Ones I’m focusing on are the Renovations, Tech Search, and Art Series before the others. Pretty Self-Explanatory All. I’ll be fucking about on my Socials too, probably gonna make an Art-Only Twitter (Maybe) and really work on my SFW/NSFW Accounts there. 

Anyway Night!

Gonna be pretty busy this week, Dog just had Pups and our other female is due soon as well (Sneaky Ass Male Got ‘Em During December). Taking Time away from Art to help take care of them, give them new homes, and get the Females fixed. IRL Responsibilities Time. I’ll be around tho

I’ll try to get Art in when I can, but yeah gonna be Dogsitting and Housesitting for a Good While.

Feel Better than I’ve been after today which is Nice. Feeling Motivated

Edit (2/11/25): Gosh these are going to be a LONG few weeks, spent the whole night Dogsitting and Firekeeping.

It’s possible I might not have much time for Art at all for a little while at least.

Might end up being my biggest break from Drawing in YEARS.

Unfortunately a few pups passed.

One was stillborn and one was very sickly. The rest seem strong tho. Emotional Night, not completely morose this ain’t my first rodeo raising animals. That aspect’s never easy tho.

Anyway I’m gonna try to pass out now. See you guys soon

Gonna try to list out all the Plans I got for 2025, gonna basically expand on the New Year’s Resolutions I made in December. So here’s that:

https://cyberneticshotokan.newgrounds.com/news/post/1496864

All That, plus the Creative Plans List for 2024 and Beyond I made Last Year. Which I’ll expand with stuff I wrote on a paper list at the bottom of this post.

For the next few months I’ll basically be on a similar beat: Working On The List. Personal Work like Housework and Exercising regularly again. Balancing Work, Study, and Life better. And just kinda lazing around a bit more until it’s Go-Time. As well as catching up on my Media Backlog and keeping up with New Shit better. Just this similar routine until I can discuss getting Jobs and doing Comms with my Disability People. I gotta wait for some stuff to line up first, and it’s up to their discretion whenever it happens. I’m hoping sometime in Spring/Summer. When that’s settled, I got a Prototype Comm Sheet/Artist TOS ready to go. Tho that’s mainly tailored towards Illustrative Art for now.

Gonna brush up my Tech Literacy and upgrade my Setup for a Work/Gaming/Streaming Rig when I feel I can. Make some Studio Space in my places to do Voicework as well. Basically just trying to do whatever I didn’t have the Time for the last few years. Gonna get Driving again as well, either before or after I get the Go-Ahead to Work. Springtime at the Earliest hopefully.

I would be lying if I said I’m not worried about how this Year’s gonna play out, given how Goddamn Wild January has been in America and abroad. But I’m using my Rage and Sadness as fuel to fulfill my Goals and try to do what I can for my own and others. As well as trying to create and/or ride Good Vibe Waves more often. And drink more of Life in when possible. Stay Safe, Protect You and Yours, Have Fun, Use Your Rage And Not The Other Way Around.

Anyway Onto The Creative Projects List:

• Edgy Art Arc Continued
• DbD Killer/Survivor Portraits “Fog’s Finest”

• “Reign of Darkstalkers” Art Series
• ”Devilish Visages” Devilman Variants Art Series

• More Digital Art
• Livestreaming 
• Learning Creative Programs
• Voicework 
• Figuring Out Finances
• Expanding Creative Mediums/Subjects 
• More Written Work

• Experience, Learn About, and Write About More Media
• Study Languages, Sciences, Cultures, Maths, and Religions
• Increase Computer/Tech Literacy 
• Study Currency Conversion for Commissions 
• Make A VTuber Model
• Work On Original Fiction Again
• Write Short Stories 
• Write/Create Horror 
• Practice and Do Voicework 

Illustration List:

• Nintendo Art
• Capcom Art
• SEGA Art
• PlayStation Art
• Xbox Art
• Memorial Art for Fallen Inspirations
• Horror Art
• Lewd Art
• Abstract Art
• Background/Scenic Art
• Nature/Animal Art
• Monster Art
• Anime Art
• Western Cartoon Art
• Furry Art
• MLP Art
• TF2/Valve Art
• VTuber Art
• Fighting Game Art
• Loli Art
• Tentacle Hentai Art
• Eroguro Art
• Various Fetish Art
• OC Art
• Digital Art
• 3D Art
• Pencil & Paper Art
• Pixel Art
• Clay Art
• Filmic/Photography Art
• Animation
• Music
• Tattoo
• Graphic Design 
• Art Made in dreams 
• VR Art
• Material Rendering 
• Cosplay 
• Fanart for Indie Projects 
• Mario Art
• Kirby Art
• Zelda Art
• Splatoon Art
• Street Fighter Art
• Darkstalkers Art
• Skullgirls Art
• Guilty Gear Art
• Megaman Art
• Dragon Ball/Akira Toriyama Art
• Go Nagai Art
• Atsushi Kubo Art
• Super Hero Art
• Horror Comic Art
• TRIGGER/Gainax Art
• Adult Swim Art
• Family Guy Art
• Futurama Art
• Simpsons Art
• American Dad Art
• King of the Hill Art
• Bob’s Burgers Art
• ATHF Art
• Cartoon Network Art
• Nickelodeon Art
• South Park Art
• Creepypasta/SCP Art
• Art of Anything Inspiring Me
• Comic Art
• FNAF Animatronics Series
• Zenless Zone Zero Agent Series
• “Slasher Stars” Art Series
• Hellraiser Cenobites Series
• GORE-GIRL PROJECT Fanart
• RWBY Fanart
• Matanza Fanart
• Retro Toons Fanart
• Creature/Monster Art
• No More Heroes Boss Art Series
• My Hero Academia Fanart
• Cartoon Network Fanart
• Nickelodeon Fanart
• Adult Swim Fanart
• Disney Fanart
• Dreamworks Fanart
• Megaman Robot Master/Boss Art Series

• Megaman X Maverick/Boss Art Series
• Holiday Art
• And Whatever Else Comes To Mind, I’ll Add In Future Edits.

Well there, basically my Entire Year listed out. I’ll add this to the Artist Introduction, which I’ll repost with this attached after letting this sit for a bit.

Despite it all, Let’s Kick Ass This Year, And Kick This Year’s Ass If We Gotta!

Artist Introduction Post For 2025

Hello! I am Devilman Shotokan, an aspiring Indie Artist and soon-to-be VTuber. I specialize in Traditional Illustration, but I also enjoy Creative and Analytical Writing. I’ve also been expanding the mediums I play around in. I’m a Demonic Reploid who’s Designed for Combat but Obsessed with Creation. Most tend to either call me Devilman or Shoto, either is fine by me. As well as Ray (Maybe. I Need To Think On That One A Bit). I’ve got a Deep Love for Art, the mediums I love most being Video Games, Animation, Film, Music, and Books/Comics. I try not to tie myself down with Genres too much, but I do have my Preferences which can be apparent. I Love Superheroes, Horror, Cartoons, and other Expressive Subjects like that. But do like more Down-to-Earth Stuff as well. I also enjoy studying Science, History, Art Culture, and Mythology. I’m always focused on my Art before any Streaming endeavors. But I do plan on balancing that out a bit more since Streaming is not only a Good Chance to have productive Downtime, but is a Great Way to connect to others and learn a bit more about the World.

Newgrounds is my Artistic Home Base. But DeviantArt is becoming a Close Second quickly. I Love Exploring both Wholesome and Edgy Subject-Matter, often appreciating Art that blends the Two the most. I don’t Stream yet. But I plan to on Twitch, YouTube, Twitter, and any place that catches my Eye. I’ll add links to my Art Socials underneath this soon, and Edit this post to add more in the Future.

LinkLog (If Linktree Wasn’t A Paid Service):

Main Twitter:

https://x.com/cyberneticshot1

DeviantArt:

https://www.deviantart.com/thedevilmansden

Substack:

https://substack.com/@devilmandiaries2

SFW Twitter:

https://x.com/dendevilmans

NSFW Twitter:

https://x.com/devildungeons

Bluesky (Not Twitter):

https://bsky.app/profile/devilmanshotokan.bsky.social

I plan to spend more balanced amounts of Time here and at the others from now on. But I spend a lot of Time on Twitter since despite its deserved reputation it still can be a Great Source of Interaction and Information. So if you’d like to see me Brain Dump about whatever, that’s the Best Place. I’ve also got a SFW and NSFW Alt there if you’d like to cater the Intensity of the Content you’d see from me. Newgrounds and DeviantArt are MUCH better for Artistic Curation/Filtration tho. So if you’re only interested in my Art those are your Best Bets.

On a more Real World Note, I have the condition known as CMT (Charcot-Marie-Tooth. Not Country Music Television). It’s a form of both Muscular Dystrophy and a Neurological Disorder, it also affects my Immune System to a degree. I am very fortunate to have a variation of the Condition that leaves me pretty much Able-Bodied, Martial Arts and Swimming being my Best Forms of Exercise to Combat the Muscular Degeneration (Fortunately I Can Also Build Muscle Fast Which Helps). However, even though it’s been nearly a decade since; it did lead to me suffering from a Week of Strokes/Seizures back in 2015. I’m also a Soul who’s seen a lot in its Time. But despite some of the Harrowing Shit I’ve been through, some which No Person should Suffer. This World has shown me more Kindness than not. So since I was Young, I figured being an Artist/Entertainer would be the Best Way I could contribute to Humanity without getting in it’s way. Since I could help inspire those more Practically Useful than myself while doing what I can in my own Life. The Last Few Years I’ve had to come to terms with a lot, and felt the grip of Insanity in the process. But 2024 has been a Year of Healing and getting back on Track. Despite it’s own difficulties at times.

Here’s a few more things from my “Pin Prime” on Twitter to inform ya’ll about me. And a News Post about this Year that includes an Earlier Post detailing the Plans I have for the Foreseeable Future.

https://cyberneticshotokan.newgrounds.com/news/post/1486158

• If I Retweet/Share your Work and you'd rather I not, just let me know and I'll take it down soon after.

Figured now that I'm sharing Music/Other’s Creations on my Socials I should be clear on that.

I don't have the Tools I Want for Streaming yet.

But when I do expect these kinda Streams:

• Gaming

• Watchalongs

• DJ/Music Sharing Vibe Zones

• Creative Work Streams

• Storytelling Streams

• Interviews?

• News Streams?

• TTRPG Streams

• Content Warning: The Beware of Content isn't just to sound Cute. If you follow, we’ll frankly expect Horrific and Explicit Material. I won't retweet anything Hyper Lewd/Hyper Gory except in October for Spooky Season.

• I believe that Anyone should make Any Art they desire. I have things I don't like Subject-Wise but l will not Demonize you unless your Personality/Demeanor/Conduct is Condemnable. And while I don't want a Hivemind of Followers I hope you all can do the same.

• Furthermore I do not like Policing Jokes or Art. At all if I can help it. But if you’re going for straight-up Harassment get the Fuck out of here. Having Heated Debates is one thing, Harassment’s another.

• That said: I do not believe a Block should be a Forever Thing. Not that I'll make a habit of reversing blocks, but I don't like the Idea of Permanently Burning Bridges.

• For an actual list of what to expect for Content to be Wary Of, from myself and people I follow:

• Bloody Gory Horror

• Extreme Sexual Content

• Political Expression/Exploration

• This isn't technically my NSFW Account, or a Political/Drama Focused Space. But I don’t like Restriction.

• VTubing-Related Concerns: I may be very interested in it, and open to RP (When TTRPG Is Involved) as well as having Lore I'm building quietly. But I'm not playing into a Character with my VTubing Endeavors. It's more for an Avatar to have.

• As of November 29, 2024; I’m still in Pre-Debut VTweeter phase. But I plan to start Streaming within 2025. And am close to being done with Preparations.

• Figured I'd put this here for Future Reference: I go by Eastern Standard Time, in the U.S.

• I am not in a position to pay for Commissions right now, nor getting paid for my own services. I just learned I can Donate on Streams without fucking up my Disability. Maybe. But that mostly goes towards Necessities/Bills. Merch is an Easy Buy tho. This should be resolved sometime in 2025.

• One Thing I really want to do is start doing Reviews on Indie Art and Artists. Especially for Games and Animation. Because there's so much out there that's Underrated. And given how unappreciated these Mediums I Love still are, I want to do my part to aid changing that.

• I'm not looking to foster a Community but a Vibe. One that can swap back and forth from talking about Cutesy Shit, Edgy/Risqué Shit, or Serious Shit whenever. Not interested in policing Followers or Callouts too. At least not really for the latter.

• I have to deal with Health Issues, and bouts of PTSD. So forgive me if I disappear at Times, go on unhinged rants, or frankly discuss either. I'm avoiding that nowadays but this Decades seen both get worse. Tho in 2024 my Mentality has Restabilized quite a bit so that's a Plus.

• I’m getting more open to taking Art Requests. It'll be a Good Way to practice discipline with my Art and warmup for Commissions. I'll apply the same rules I'm cooking tor Comms. 4-8 a month. First come First serve. Maybe 2-4 at a time will be a better start tho. Currently Crafting a TOS/Comm Sheet.

• My DMs are always open to chat, Business or Casual. A big part of my reason for making Art Socials is to talk to others and learn perspectives. I can also be Flirty and Affectionate. But I’m not looking for Relationships.

I’ll edit this to add things like Schedules and Links in the Future. Maybe I’ll add some of my Favorite Art/Writing as a sampler too. All of that will be underneath this. But for now that’s really all you need to know about me. Enjoy your stay in The Devilman’s Den!

1/28/25: Still thinking of taking ‘til the 31st off of Drawing, though I might cut that early.

Getting the List of Creative Projects I want to tackle this Year sorted at least.

Basically just Continuing/Expanding Projects from Last Year I started or planned out. With some New Stuff.

For a quick idea of what I’m focusing on for the next few Drawings:

Continuing/Restarting Art Series

VTuber Fanart

Retro Toon Art

Ero-Guro

Slasher Fanart

Superhero Fanart

Hentai

Environmental/Scenic Art

Style Recreation Exercises

Monster/Creature Art

Last Nerd Haul for a bit, two items I had held for me Last Week.

Miss Kobayashi Vol 1, and THE CHRONICLES OF DOOM. I choose to get Ultimate Spider-Man Vol 1 last week but they all make for Unique Companions, and I’ve been excited for All Three. Especially the DOOM Bio!

I also got some cheap but effective looking Storage Bins so I can continue Comic Hunting again soon. But for now I gotta rearrange my Shit a bit. These, and the Spider-Man Cover all fit perfectly in my Mind’s Mish-Mash Aesthetic. There was also a CZARFACE Poster there.

Behind Godzilla Posters, had a Good Conversation with the Clerk there too. Gonna call my Grandma later for her BDay as well (Gonna Get Her A Gift + Write A Note With It When It Arrives).

Overall after a pretty mixed January where I was Sick & Mad a lot. Had a Good Time Today! Seriously though, while this January has been Tough as Hell at times. It’s also been pretty Good too. And I’ve managed to get a lot done as well. Hopefully I can keep this Momentum most this Year!

First Nerd Haul of the Year!

Didn’t quite have the cash I’d thought I would, but along with getting a Binder and some Folders for this Year’s Art. I got myself some Goodies.

To start simple, a “Creepy Cuties”?, “Cutie Creatures?” Teddy Bear Michael Myers Sticker.

Got it at a Coin-Op Machine in Walmart. Adorable. Fitting since it’s John Carpenter’s Birthday!

Then a Bride of Chucky Valentine’s T. F***in’’ Awesome! Also from Walmart.

And finally I got started on the Comic Hunt I’ve been meaning to do. Couldn’t get all I wanted, might next time I go. But.

I picked up the new Ultimate Spider-Man’s First Volume. Comes with the First Six Issues of the Run!

Read the First Two.

I F***ing Love This Book.

But yeah now that I’ve gotten stuff to Store/Sort the Art for this Year I’ll be more motivated in my Art, got 4 Pieces currently in progress. Hopefully I’ll get those done sometime next Week, maybe even this Weekend if I really hustle on it. I’ll probably still be pretty absent this Weekend but I’ll be Working! Later Folks!

Wallace & Gromit: Vengeance Most Fowl is Incredible! It’s a bit of a Formulaic W&G Plot, but it’s another Great One. I always enjoy the ones where the rest of the Town gets involved, and it’s just nice having a Sequel Story too.

Also the Animation is just Beautiful.

I LOVE a lot of the scenes at Night in any Aardman Movie. They really know how to use Set Lighting to the Fullest. And it’s funny they have some Horror Vibes in places as well, almost more than Were-Rabbit.

I almost wish it was Longer, just to have more Character Moments.

That’s the only real Criticism I have, it feels like they had to simplify some of the Characters’ Dialogue to fit every Plot Point. Like make it matter of fact/Plainly State things at times. It really ramps up in the End tho!

This might be in my Top 3 of ‘em, Highly Recommend!