CyberneticShotokan 2024-12-10 17:18:32 (Updated 2024-12-10 17:49:33)

Thanks. You too.

CyberneticShotokan 2024-12-10 17:56:09

Yep. Got it in one.

This is a small town, and this road leads into town and the city. With a rough hill to manage on both ends. This isn’t the first soul it’s taken. It won’t be the last.

Hell if I’m downstairs and there’s some Black Ice, then a 18 Wheeler flies down like they love to do here. Skids on it. That could be my end.

This was so fucking tragic. She was barely outside the driveway, not even in the road. And someone got her the moment we were distracted. Driving too fast because frankly most drivers around here just fly down that road like retards.

I told my Dad to hook her up. He didn’t listen.

I had just come back after being away a few days. I should’ve stayed.

I was feeling nothing but hate. And wanted to hunt the driver down and make them suffer. Only to hear they came back, Crying.

No I’m not feeling anything but a cold contempt. Pangs of sadness and anger still erupting a bit. But mostly nothing now. Accept despising God, for it felt like he was just setting up the perfect punchline today.

I last held her holding her back from going outside earlier.

While I was cooking me and my father were discussing this. Him talking about how she’s been better at sticking around. Me saying to not bet on it. He brought up how he maybe saw my childhood cat that had gone missing a little while ago.

I almost screamed my throat out. I was feeling so angry. Now just the contempt. And regret.

CyberneticShotokan 2024-12-11 04:50:55 (Updated 2024-12-11 06:11:09)

My father handled that, He didn’t want me to see. I’ll ask him where she is later today to say that. I just couldn’t be around him because I was so angry, and he feels terrible enough. I really don’t want to lash out. But at the same time I do. Because like I said I told him not to bet on it.

Thanks for the concern. It’s very appreciated.