Alrighty Five Days to Christmas, so I’m gonna start a new Christmas Tradition here where I list of some Goals for the New Year and take a quick little look back at what was accomplished/experienced in the Current.
Here’s the Artist Introductions if ya need that, but this post will probably make the Update at the End a little obsolete:
https://cyberneticshotokan.newgrounds.com/news/post/1495817
Anyway, Resolutions First!
- Exercise/Train Regularly Again
- Start Streaming
- Make My VTuber Debut
- Start Animating Again
- Broaden My Artistic Horizons
- Catch Up On My Media Backlog
- Do Commissions
- Explore Newgrounds More
- Start Studying Japanese+Spanish
- Get A Work/Gaming PC Setup
- Balance Work/Life Better
Ok so now onto the Year Retrospective, as well as discussing some of these Resolutions In-Depth.
2024 was the Best Year of the 2020’s for me, in many ways I feel like I’ve gotten past the Super Schizo Depression I’ve been fighting with since 2020. Not only have I made half of my entire Art Catalogue this Year alone, but I’ve also made some steps I’ve should’ve taken already by now. Both in my Artistic Life and my Personal Life. And have gotten a much Healthier Balance of the two. But. This Year’s also been Fucking Rough. You don’t need me to tell you that. It’s been rough on Everyone. There’s been stuff in my Personal Life that’s been Hard. Stuff I’ve seen others going through that’s Hard to see. And stuff I’ve seen in both Artistic and Civilian Life that’s been really hard to see. That along with Death rearing its gluttonous head again in my Life and outside it. It’s been hard to appreciate the Good, but I’ve been able to more because I’ve been more proactive in Fighting Despair. A lot of people will try to avoid Anger and Sadness, but they’re part of being Human too. So it’s better to try to Utilize that Pain, and be in control of it rather than the Opposite. I’ve also allowed myself to just have Fun and reach out to people more. In my Art and Personal Life. It’s not like I was completely closed off or anything the last few years. I just feel more in Balance of everything. Despite a lot of the Chaos me and…well Everyone is surrounded by. Sure, I’m still VERY Angry and Hurt at a lot. But frankly that’s always been a part of me. I grew up experiencing a lot of the Best and Worst Life can offer. It can make me feel Ancient and Infantile all at once. But this Year, in a really Faustian Way, kinda helped me come to terms with a lot of that.
So that aside, 2025 is gonna be the Year I genuinely start progressing with my Life instead of setting up for it. I’ll be able to finally Work and do Commissions sometime next year (It’s Hard To Be Self Sufficient As A Disabled American When Our Current System Will Eat Years Of Your Life Waiting Only To Penalize You If You Can Make Lemonade Outta Crippled Lemons), I’m going to make a effort to start Driving again, despite recent Trauma with this Scary Road I live next to. I used to Drive, Well, as a Kid. And even a bit after my Stroke made it hard to feel how much pressure I apply to the Gas and Brakes. I’ve already made Great Strides in my Art and my Home Life despite everything. I already have Comm Sheets and Artistic TOS cooking, and a few Civvie Jobs in mind. I’ve started doing a lot of those Resolutions already this Year. The Main Goal of 2025 is to get a better Balance of everything. And to stop letting myself get Stunned by Sadness/Anger, rather utilize those Emotions as an additional Fuel of Motivation when Happiness, Humor, and Horniness aren’t cutting it. And to really broaden my Horizons as whole while sharpening my skills. As well as just take better care of my Health while being there for Loved Ones. IRL and Online. And frankly just kinda Mellow Out where it counts. A lot of my Newgrounds Followers especially deserve that last part. Because if you just follow me here and not on Twitter or even Bluesky you’d probably think I’m miserable 24/7. That’s my fault for using my Art Accounts to vent frustrations (A Lot Of Them Born From Art World/Industry Shit), especially here. But it’s important not to Escape from Negativity all the Time, but utilize it in a Healthy Way. Even Weaponize it if the situation calls for it. But yeah I think I’ve said all I really need to with this one folks. Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, and may we all have a Happier New Year! Peace on Earth and all that Good Will Hallmark Shit. See ya around!