Hey people, I just wanted to speak my mind and share my intentions going forward. I wanted to save this for September but it’s gonna bug me all month if I don’t talk now.

As anyone paying attention knows, my Mindset towards my purpose with my Art Life has been fluctuating Hardcore this year. Both because of my actions and stuff that’s been going down this year. And I’ve been having to pick up the pieces of my Mental since November.

I’ve accomplished things I thought would take ages in these Four Years. Increased my Artistic Skill Exponentially. And interacted with a wide variety of people, if only Online. But at the same time I fell into behaviors that sicken me. I got and fought an Obsessive Streak, one I’m still tempering. I’ve gotten into my First Internet Arguments, some of which I was an obnoxious ass. Shared my Pain constantly to you all. This Constant Whining; which is good on a Transparency Level by keeping you all Informed of my situation and intentions but I feel like an Attention Whore whenever I do this. Especially because I’ve been seeing people who have it way worse who’d be much more deserving of Support both in my Real Life and on here.

Especially because I haven’t put out much work, despite being Busy as Hell with Creative and Personal Responsibility. Though some of you still like my WIPs which is nice. ^^

As I’ve said before, I started this path because I wanted to contribute to the world while meeting people, learning new things, and having Fun. With my Traumatized, Disabled Ass; I feel like being in any Important Roles like a Doctor or even a Store Clerk would just slow those environments down. But as an Artist I can Inspire and Comfort those more useful than myself to Society. On my own terms. And make any positive ripple in the Sea of Life I can.

But. I’m worried. I’m worried that I’m just killing the Spirits of my Followers. Toying with Emotions. Making people feel neglected or worse used by me. I’ve made a lot of connections that are very fresh. Some of you are Followers here and on Twitter. I’ve also been studying the Work of many Artists and various things Humanity has accomplished and perpetuated. In All Honesty these last Four Years have been a bit of a Blur. I don’t want people to feel I’m using them, or just Hunting Heads. But especially after my Breakdown in November, my worries of how present I am in people’s Lives have spiked. With all the Crazy Stories this year has produced too, it’s been so hard to keep my Motivation. I’m close to the Mindset I had when I started.

But this is all stuff I’ve been saying this entire year. I’m so ready to just get over it and have fun with ya’ll again. But Stories keep hitting close to home and making me reevaluate Shit.

I’m still sticking to the plans I’ve stated in the last post, staying offline for the most part until September. I got a lot of Art to work on and IRL Shit to do as usual, I might lurk around like I’ve been but to a much lesser extent.

I’m considering taking a year off but I think it’s just an overthought. I want to just go about the casual conversations and analyzing others’ Art, while sharing my work and words like I used to. And I have been to an extent.

But I need to make sure this isn’t just chasing attention and fucking with people’s heads. So please don’t feel obligated to follow me. Whether you’re a fan or friend.

I guess this Shit’s a good place to end. Screw these types of Posts for a long time. You know what I’m about if you read these.

Stay Safe out there Chooms. Live as Hard as you can, with some Responsibility.

Hey ya’ll, I just want to let you know I’m doing better. If you’re unaware yesterday I let myself get frustrated to the point of venting about how my show of support to Lex, Leighton, and Rav quickly became my most viewed thing ever. I’ve already explained why I got so mad, but to sum it up (Especially For My Newgrounds Folk); what started as Rage against a group of Scum quickly became frustration at Twitter boosting my most Negative Post in spite of my Art or previous Solidarity Posts.

But honestly I lost sight of the fact it was only getting views. Unlike all the compliments or fun interactions I’ve had these near 4-Years. In fact I should be Glad that it’s my most viewed post. I just wish I made it more about showing kindness to those Hurt than Anger at Vermin.

It’s a great microcosm of my Best and Worst Traits I’ve shown honestly. Wanting to show Kindness and Support, even to Strangers; while not being afraid to call out what I feel is Bull Shit Passionately. Contrasted with Impulsivity and Doubt leading to Stupid Choices.

SuperMega deserves to crumble. All this anger should be focused solely on the perpetrators. And I wish there was more posts about showing Support through Kindness instead of Anger. But Demonizing the anger isn’t necessary. In fact I saw a bit of In Fighting while reading this. Furthermore, while it’s healthy to have fear for what this means for the groups surrounding SuperMega; focus should be kept on this incident. Not on weighing this against others like Oneyplays or the Grumps.

This’ll most likely be the last time I bring this up as well. Even if I relate to Lex, Leighton, and Rav’s Pain. This isn’t my fight. However, sad as this is to say, it’s yet another story this year that serves as a Cautionary Tale for any Creative in the Digital Age. Protect Yourself. Have a fallback plan, and include people you can Trust in it. And don’t be afraid to be seen as the Bad Guy or get ostracized by former Creative Friends.

Because as we’ve seen. Indie or Professional. Corruption can easily take hold in the Art Sphere.

I wish Lex, Leighton, and Rav all the Best.

Matt. Ryan. Don. Jim.

If there’s a Hell, you got VIP Tickets.

I’m still gonna be off for a bit, setting up a Studio Space in a room that’s been needing cleaning for a bit. But when I return I’m gonna rewrite my Twitter Pin one more time and do some Major Account Maintenance.

I wanna state that the Mass Unfollowing I’m likely gonna do isn’t out of spite, and I leave the door open for anyone to contact me if they’d like to keep me around. God that sounds Egotistical. But this is a matter of not stretching myself thin.

In my it’s hard enough for me to find Time for people in my Life due to the Complications of my Condition and the Mental Strain it causes. I don’t want people in the Work Side of my Life to feel I’m Ignoring, Manipulating, or Abandoning them.

That all said it’s been Fun slowly getting back in stride. There’s been a few times now where I’ve taken a break from Social Media for various reasons. Becoming Repetitive in my Analysis of others work, Feeling I’ve let myself hinder others, and the Mind Break of 2022.

After all this time, and all the mental flip-flopping I’ve been doing; I do feel truly back to me. But now that I’m comfortable with what I’m doing on here again and how I go about Interacting with people I need to focus on the Grind while still having Fun.

So to sum it all up:

Need to Work, but can stop this intense Self-Scrutiny, at least in the Public.

Need to reconnect with people but take it slowly. I definitely got too comfortable immediately calling people Friend at times (No Offense To Anyone, It’s Purely On Me).

And overall just stop taking this Too Seriously while keeping my Head On. I made my NG and Twitter to interact with people across the Globe and start pursuing Art as an Indie. And while I’ve had some major Fuck Ups imo, I’ve mostly stuck to that.

Ok that should be the last of these Self-Critique Posts for a Loooooooong While. I can always look back on things if I ever feel like I’m slipping.

Back to the Plan I had shared. No more Major Posts (Excluding RTs, Emergencies, And Comments) until I get my Art Backlog done.

Also gonna enjoy the Remainder of Summer Outdoors and With Family and Friends as possible. Which I’ve done much more than Last Year and I Love It. Hell I might post some Photos on here and NG ‘cause I got some pretty sights around here.

For now, Stay Safe, Hustle, Have Fun.

Quick Status Update:

Still not making Major Posts ‘til I’m done with my Work. But I’m still Lurking a bit and will leave Comments/Reply to DMs.

Got a New Lamp that will really improve the Lighting in my Physical Pieces.

Am Prepping to make accounts for Twitch and Kick.

Also prepping to set up Shit for Crowdfunding so I can actually start pulling in some Cash for my Work. Have Reservations on the Platform to use and on how to properly handle this. I ain’t looking to Scam anyone or get more than I’m worth.

Trying to keep motivated.

Peace Peeps.

Got Two Stacks of Art I gotta Finish or Remake. I’m tempted to just show all of it but I’ve already shared some. So it might take me a bit, especially ‘cause my Ass keeps getting Bored of One and drawing Another.

I’ve been playing SF 6 as much as I can, been Loving It and I’d like to write an In-Depth Review on it when I finish World Tour. But here’s some of my thoughts:

Manon has the Best Arcade Story.

E. Honda and Juri have the Worst.

Tone feels a bit like V’s “Saturday Morning” Vibe.

Love the Feel of the Game, but there are times like in SFV where the Inputs interpret simple motions as me doing a Super.

All the characters have been Fun to mess with; Jamie, Ryu, Lily, and Ken especially for me.

Ken contemplating Murder while Ryu has found Peace with himself is Fascinating. A lot of the Legacy Characters just kinda continuing their Status Quo is a bit disappointing but only really Egregious to me with Honda and Juri’s Arcade Story.

I dig the Music but it is a bit samey.

And lastly for now I like the Vibe of World Tour. Even if it’s not as Edgy as I’d like a story about Finding What Strength Means in the World’s Streets. But that could change since I’m still pretty early in. Though MAN I wish you could change the Font. Shit’s Hard to Read a lot.

So I got a Fun Idea whenever I feel up for trying it out.

I Semi-Regularly take recommendations of Various Media from my followers (Here And On Twitter) and write out Short Reviews on them. Preferably it’d be Shit I haven’t experienced or haven’t in a while, and I’m thinking of making it a crowdfunding reward to kinda moderate how many I could get (Once I Decide On A Payment Service, I Guess Is What You’d Call That Shit).

In the meantime here’s One from me. “Hood of Horror”, a Horror Anthology with a “Tales from the Crypt” Vibe to it and some Big Names that I’ll let ta’ll find out who.

Was Great, but kinda made me Depressed; Highly Recommend!

Alrighty so I may be returning in August, I may not be. Real Life’s getting Busy for me. But things are going well! Since I might not be back when I desired I’ll be dropping some Art every few days or so. WIPs Included. Some I’m still keeping for the Art Explosion though.

Here’s Angel Dust! I’ve been really getting into the Hellaverse lately so expect a lot of Fan Art in the Future. Spindlehorse as a whole should be Very Proud of what they’ve accomplished. Hazbin/Helluva are Beacons for Indie Animation, and this has been a Great Year for it!

Art Explosion: A Big Art Dump where I’ll share a bunch of Illustrations of widely varying Tones and Subjects. I’ll be sharing it all at once, and write [ CONTENT WARNING: ] on any especially Edgy Shit I make. Doing this as both a Creative Exercise and as recompense for all the complaining I’ve been doing since November.

Scream Franchise Retrospective: Covering the Films up to VI, along with some other Ghostface-Adjacent Media like Danny Johnson of Dead by Daylight and the TV Show; this is gonna be my Love Letter to one of my Favorite Franchises. Going In-Depth on the Film and Show’s Production, the Climate of Horror and Film around each release, some of the Big and Infamous Names attached along with their Relationship with the Franchise, and how the series has impacted the Entirety of Entertainment over the Years. This is going to be a Long Project that may be split into multiple parts.

Futurama Four: Along with a Rewrite of the First Part I did, I’ll cover my thoughts on the Futurama Movies made before the Comedy Central Era of the show. This will be a bit more casual of an Analysis like some of the Older Reviews I’ve written. Just a bit more professional and for the First Half more tightly written.

Devilman Animation Retrospective: Think a blend of the In-Depth Density of the Scream Retrospective with the more casual approach I’ve mentioned. This will cover every Animated Adaptation of Devilman, which I’ve been enjoying my Time with recently. I want to cover the Mangas at some point to but I’ve little experience with ‘em outside of Study.

Shoto’s Album of the Day: Something I’ve already done on Twitter, I want to recommend Albums I enjoy each day I decide to Log In. I’m not very experienced with analyzing Music so this will be a pretty casual affair compared to other writing I’ll be doing.

Illustration Remakes: I want to post Higher Quality Versions of a lot of my Old Art as is. But I feel like Redrawing some pieces would be a lot more Fun! I’ll do this sporadically, much like how I always do my Art anyway. But I’ll try not to do too many Back-to-Back.

And aside from that I’ve got various ideas for Creative Writing, as well as some kinda Newsletter about various things on my mind and a Artist Recommendation Thing; but I’ll wait to talk about those when they’re ready. Or at least almost ready. Also want to gear up for Streaming by Next Year. But for now it’s time I shut up for a while and get my Mojo back. As well as my Edge. Stay Safe Chooms. Earth’s a Crazy Place, but a place that’s full of Good Times as well as the Bad. Live Life.

Dude this year is just stomping on my Balls, and not in the Fun Way. Every month has had some BS Drama and actual troubling Shit that’s either pissed me off or just deeply upset me. I’ll have to write a list honestly ‘cause there’s been so much. But unfortunately since a lot of it involves Artists Abusing each other, a lot unfortunately being of a Sexual Nature; and me with still dealing with the ramifications of sharing my Trauma repeatedly on here and Twitter since November it’s just been Hard. All I want to do is just Have Fun, Work on my Shit, maybe do some Good here and there, and not have to worry if another Artist I like couldn’t keep it in their pants. Or just you know, isn’t bein’ a Vile Twat.

I’ll add a list to some of the Shit that’s been gnawing at my head later on in a comment to this. But from Shit like the Emi Jones Situation and everything surrounding that, various stupid VTuber Dramas (Especially Stupid Now That I’m Learning The History Since I Still Want To Do It), the SethTheProgrammer Drama, the Rapper Slowthai apparently bein’ a Rapist (RapaDaRappa) ruining one of my Favorite Gorillaz Songs (Momentary Bliss, Ironic), and now Plagued Moth’s Battle against ThatCreepyReading and the dude who wrote “Abandoned by Disney” recently. Not to mention the Gore Vids that were flooding Twitter and other sites. I’m ***king Angry, Sad and Burnt Out.

There’s been Awesome Shit going on this year too, and I’d still like to return in August and just have some ***kin’ Fun and Work to show (Which I Have Been. Honestly Been Drawing Some Of My Best Shit Despite All This). But if I don’t come back then just wait. I’ll show up Sooner or Later, maybe next year if I really feel the need. Still busy in my Personal Life too and I need to be able to Focus on it. I’m sure ya guys can understand. I’m Annoyed I’ve spent so much Time Venting but I want to be Honest with my Mental to you guys. And just happened to get a bizarre ride on the Luck Carousel since 2020.

But, like with the previews in the Last Post; I want to leave ya’ll with something to look forward to from me. So I’ll share some of the Major Creative Endeavors I want to get done soon.

First Off, Art Explosion. Gonna unload a bunch of completed work on you guys at once of varying Subjects and Tones. I’ll rate Shit properly and even add Content Warnings when needed, in Extreme Cases anyway. Self-Explanatory and I gave ya’ll a taste already so no need to keep bringing that up.

Second. A bunch of Written Work. I’ll be Rewriting the first half of the “Futurama Four” and adding it with the Second Half. The version I got up is more Long-Winded than I’d like. I’ve got some more things I want to review as well including various Devilman Media and stuff I’ve been checking out. I’m also writing and doing Research for a big retrospective on the Entire Scream Franchise up to VI that discusses its Impact on Entertainment as a Whole. Some of you guys might remember I wanted to have it done by V’s Release but with VI being as Awesome as it is and Ghostface getting Tome Stories in Dead by Daylight I’m glad I waited. I want to do more Creative Writing as well as a kinda News Roundup Editorial thing.

And lastly for now, sometime Next Year I want to start Streaming. It’ll mostly be Gaming at first but I’ve got some ideas for Fun Stuff in the Future like Watchalongs (Especially Horror Watchalongs, That Could Be A Ton Of Fun!). Don’t count on it, but I’m hoping to have a VTuber Model ready before I start streaming. But I’m not opposed to just having Audio-Only. Like I said though that’s for next year.

Sooooo yeah. That’s where I’m at right now. Sorry I’ve spent a lot of this Year so far Bitching. And shared mostly incomplete work. Hope ya guys understand, I’ve said it a few times now but I’m gonna go quiet ‘til I come back proper. Hell I’m not gonna add that list of Drama actually, since it’s all pretty High-Profile anyway. And I just want to get back to Business. Stay Safe out there. And Good Luck.