It’s Dark.

Hope you enjoy.

Now then, back to Business as Usual for me.

Bullshit. Very Surprised and Disappointed Newgrounds. Money’s Tight for me too, as much as I’d Like to be a Supporter.

Seriously. My One Demand for NG. Change That.

Midnight Tonight On My Twitter.

I still need Time. But I’ve quickly grown weary of waiting. I will return in the First Week of December.

December 12.

On my Twitter.

I’ve made myself as Clear as I want. More Clear than many Artists Deserve from someone in my position.

I’m not stopping my Art Career. Not Ideally. I’ll have to be Dead or unable to Express myself anymore in order for that to End. But obviously my Approach will need to be changed a bit. I’m mostly the same person I’ve always been. Smarter in ways, Dumber in others. But I am Proud to have kept my Morales and Ideals along with my Interests unchanged despite EVERYTHING in my Life. The Highest Highs and Lowest Lows. Frankly I could just go about this like Nothing’s Changed. But that’s obviously not True.

But now that I know not only do I forever have the Support of my Family as long as this World will allow us to Live Life together. But now done the Most Terrifying Thing to myself of my own Accord. And have been met with a Beautifully Stunning yet Small bit of Trust and Support from Strangers in this Cutthroat World. I will Strive to do what I’ve always done with Less Hesitation: I will use both my Firsthand Experiences and the knowledge I’ve gained from So Many People in my Life, In and Out of the Internet, to Leave this World in as Best a State as I can. And Spread the only Wealth I can right now: My Kindness and Knowledge.

This all sounds Very #Nice Guytm, but know I’ve finally Enjoyed the Taste of my Venom and am less afraid Now more than Ever to Sling It. You Hurt me or those I Care About. I’ll Tear Your Throat Out With My Teeth.

So. December 12th is when I put the Final Nail in this Coffin. I will Gather All My Thoughts into a Single Thread and be done with this.

May Artists young and old remember this. So they never Feel Bullied into revealing their Pain to not Hurt others EVER AGAIN in this Industry. And be Comfortable being as Open as they Wish.

So I invite you to a Show to Remember on the 12th. A Performance I Hope will make Art even a Little Bit Safer for Everyone.

Shoto Out for now. See you again soon.

I don’t want to quit Art. Or Abandon who I could consider potential new friends. Or be unable to make Innocent General Audience Media Just ‘Cause I’ve Made Mature.

(Samurai Jack)

But. With all this Weight Lifted, I am now left with what to do next.

Maybe only the Buster in my Arm knows for sure.

Guess the only other Real Insecurity is now whether I’ve done people a favor or merely exploited them. I don’t believe I did, maybe that’s just Wishful Thinking.

Black Hearted Evil

Brave Hearted Hero.

Maybe I don’t give a Shit about either. I just want to Live Life.

I thought I was done crying.

But I’ve finally listened to “Vandalize”.

I’ll be back.

I need to take time to take with Family, work on projects without distraction (Not To Disparage You Guys, Newgrounds Especially Will Be Homebase Forever), and some time to reconsider my Approach to the Art World.

Maybe I should just be a Silent Artist. They’re always Respectable and usually are Extremely Talented. Maybe having a period where I just post Art without speaking I’d just what I need.

Whatever happens, I’ll Lurk Around to keep an Eye on Things. But needless to say if my “Career” of all things I’ve been through is the First Thing in my Life to give me Panic Attacks (Especially The One I Had 8 Hours Ago) I should take a Break.

Thank you all for your Kindness over these Years. I Hope to return a Stronger, Happier Man. And be the Supportive Influence I wish my Career to make me.

I’m not gonna say it here, ‘cause i frankly don’t feel like Repeating myself.

But got to my Twitter. Because of course my first real taste of Internet Bullshit happened on Twitter.

I’ll take some time to write this shit out later here.

But if ya wanna just see it Real Time it’s there.

“If I’m gonna be a caged bird I’ll sing the best song I can”

Wes Craven, Oct 20 2014