[SPOILERS]

Alright saddle up folks this is gonna be a

Long One.

So I grew up with Futurama from way back in my day. Never watched broadcasts but DVDs had my back. But I knew that it had been of the air for a while. Then BAM!

Direct-to-Video Movies. Only watched two back in the day: “Beast with a Billion Backs” and “Bender’s Game”. Eventually with the rise of Streaming Services and Reruns on Comedy Central, I’d catch the other two later in my Youth. I Love Futurama A Ton, No Doubt About That. But I wanted to revisit them nowadays and see what I can pull from my viewing without studying the Creation of each. And thus, here we are! This is purely off the cuff and my perspective on these, so I may do a Follow Up where I discuss the Development of each In-Depth. But for now my Raw Gonzo Reaction to each sounds like a Fun Experiment. I’ll not be explaining Gags themselves much; just the Vibes, Storyline, and Themes of each. I’m also gonna write this with the Assumption you know who I’m talking about Character-Wise so I don’t need to introduce ‘em all. Alright, Let’s have some Fun on the Bun!

Part I: Bender’s Big Score

The first of these features, it definitely shows it in some ways but is still a Fun Time. After being rehired after being fired by the Boneheaded Executives of the BOX Network ( ;) ), the Planet Express Crew celebrates both on site; Hermes losing his head in a Freak Accident after a Limbo Contest involving sabers during the start of the revels, and at a Nudie Beach Planet. There they encounter three Nudist Aliens who will quickly become a thorn in Earth’s Ass. When the crew returns, a Scam Spree ravages New New York. And once Bender gets a Virus in his System after watching Porn from a Scam Email, along with the Professor stupidly signing the Rights to Planet Express away during his own lecture against Scams; The Nudist Aliens make their move. They claim the building/business for themselves and discover, with their Info-Seeking “Sprunger”(?) Glands, a Tattoo of Bender on Fry’s Ass that holds the Secret to Paradox-Free Time Travel. A Tattoo first seen on the Beach Planet. With some help from a Controlled Bender, they hatch a plan to steal Wealth of the Past and Scam the Earth from its Inhabitants. Using the Professor’s Doomsday Devices as Leverage in case anyone comes after them. On top of this relationship dynamics are thrown outta whack when Leela dates newcomer Lars, a charming and bald gentleman who Leela adores and Fry loathes. As well as LaBarbara leaving the Jarred Head of Hermes for Barbados Slim. The Nudists are gaining ground, and achieving wealth they take heed of Nibbler’s Warning of Universal Destruction and blank Bender’s Memory of the Code before attempting to kill Fry. Fry escaped the Nudists by traveling to the Past with the Code on his Ass.The Nudists would then send Bender to kill him. Paradox-Resolving Time Hijinks ensue until after a 12 Year Hunt, Bender kills Fry. Fry doesn’t die however due to traveling back in Time again to eat the Pizza he delivered to the Cryogenics Lab and getting stuck in the Tube with his past self. Things get progressively worse for everyone as the Nudists take control of the Planet. Except for a few. Leela, Lars, and Fry. Leela and Lars’ Relationship progresses smoothly and quickly into a proposal despite the Nudist’s Takeover. Fry attempts to sabotage the ceremony, but it ends when Hermès’ Duplicate Body he had Bender steal is destroyed. And Lars walks out believing it’s a Bad Omen. The Earthicans are Banished, with the significant members of the Cast to the freezing Neptune after Nixon is scammed of the Planet and team up with a Depressed Santa scammed from his Naughty List along with the Kwanzaa Bot and the Hanukkah Zombie to rally each other against the Nudists’ Fleet of Solid Gold Death Stars. Leela, on a knife’s edge, and Hermes; reunited with his Mojo and soon LaBarbara after his 2nd Setback, quickly take charge of the Assault from Zapp. Before and during the scenes leading to the Revolt we see Fry’s Duplicate live his Life back in 2000 onward, picking up where he left off. He works with Panucci and lives at the Pizza Shop, visits his family that he missed dearly, and even got to live with his dog Seymour by his side. He lives, Happily but with a Deep Sadness for leaving Leela and the Future. He is introduced to a Narwhal that reminds him of Leela on Television. He takes the opening of Whale Keeper after he helps “Leelu” out of her own depression in captivity. He grows a Strong Bond with her over the years. But the Aquarium is soon forced to let her into the Wild. Fry is distraught. Panucci in a rare act of genuine kindness has his cousin take Fry onboard his fishing vessel to search for her. Two years his search lasts until he has her captured for return to New York, much to the Captain’s and Crew’s chagrin. A Male Narwhal pursues them. Fry thinks he’s bothering Leelu and keeps them apart for a Time. With Hermes at the helm in the 3008 Revolution they take the Upper Hand. The Nudist’s Attempt to use the Doomsday Device. But Bender decided he could use it more during a Weak Point of his Virus’s Control. So he waited until the moment he was free of their control and Switched the Nudist’s Satchel containing the device. They use Bender’s Apology as a distraction to load it up and fire it at the Nudist’s Mothership. Destroying the vessel. The day is saved and all is well, almost. Fry seeing the Sadness of Lars and Leela tries to bring them back together. But Nudarr, the Leader of the Nudist Trio, survived with a “Doom-Proof Vest” (Sure, Whatever). He demands the code from Lars, Fry and Leela are puzzled. Lars isn’t phased by Nudarr’s Threat on his Life. But when Leela is threatened. He agrees. But Lars then releases a Bender Duplicate sealed by Fry set to Self Destruct and leaps on top of him with Nudarr in his Clutches. Nudarr is completely vaporized, and Lars while intact despite relatively little outer damage; dies due to Internal Trauma. The Bender Tattoo on his Ass reveals him to be the Fry Bender supposedly murdered. In truth Fry only received damage to his Hair and Larynx. Learning the truth for himself, he rushes to Applied Cryogenics to return to the Future and fulfill his role as Lars. Only splitting with Leela when he realizes the Fate of all Timesphere Duplicates. He explains this all to the Crew in a video will, and with Nibbler pointing out someone needs to get Fry’s Ass Inked with the Code before he came to the Future to make sense of all this. Bender takes up the charge, ripping the flesh off of Lars’ Corpse to apply to Fry’s Frozen Ass. Bender returns from the Limestone Cavern he stayed in during his Time Heists and meets with the Crew in the Planet Express Building. Along with every Bender who traveled in the Past for the Heists. The Duplicates all begin to explode due to the Concentration of Doom their existence caused. Then a Tear in the Fabric of the Universe appears, everyone is shocked. Bender says, “Well. We’re Boned”. And thus our tale ends.

Quite a lot for just under 88 minutes to cram it all in. Unfortunately it shows, but Ultimately Bender’s Big Score is still a Fun Time with a lot of Heart. But I’d say it’s Biggest Weakness is it feels padded with Hyper-Obvious Humor that was getting popular in Western Cartoons around this time. It can make the First Half hard to sit through if you’re not into that style. But it can be forgiven because A: This Movie Tackles a lot while trying to keep Continuity Straight. Only really failing with the fact there might be an Extra Fry running around in the Future, though my Headcanon is the Time Code helped stabilize the events enough where either one dies or they can live separately. The Code being made by Futurama’s God makes it a literal Deus ex Machina so this can be Overlooked. And B: the Writers clearly needed to get reacquainted with this Universe and Characters. And I say they did a Great Job. Plus the running gag of the “Executive Powder” was Great. The Slightly Ramped Up Edge from a show already edgier than the Creatives’ Previous (The Simpsons) also gives us a good taste of the Comedy Central Era of Futurama. This movie also sets up Two Major Themes that are explored deeper in the sequel to this movie. Connection and Conflict. This Story is all about how intertwined the two are and varying examples of each that parallel a lot of Society in the Mid to Late 2000s. The Rise of Viral Scams being an obvious one. All in all this is a Well Done and Well Performed Movie that’s just a bit sloppy here and there. The next one however would prove to be a major step up in pretty much every regard.

Part II: Beast with a Billion Backs

In the first five minutes this Movie is much better to watch. Much snappier and refined writing in both Comedy and Plot. Explores the themes set in the first way more directly without feeling patronizing about it. And is shockingly relevant today. But I’m getting ahead of myself due to Synopsis Exhaustion. So let’s get on with it. We get both a Previously On Segment showing the Rip form, and a great opening that shows off the crew in a Retro Cartoon Aesthetic. Our story begins, a month has passed since the Rip. People are growing weary of their exhaustion. Scientists believe it’s a gateway to another Universe. And Life goes on. Fry has met a new chick he clicks with named Colleen, Amy and Kif partake in his culture’s equivalent to Marriage, and the Cree go to Kif’s Homeworld to celebrate. Leela seems unimpressed, Fry and Colleen are getting closer, Bender’s hungry for some drama, and everyone else seems content. Even the Parents of Amy and Kif, Amy’s less so. Afterwards Bender wants to hang out with Fry, but he has a date with Colleen. Resentment begins to grow in Bender, especially after Fry decides to move in with her. Soon a Scientific Conference held by Stephen Hawking is attended by the World’s Scientists. Including Farnsworth and the Crew. He has a Heated (And One-Sided) Debate with his Rival Wernstrom. They settle it in a Game of Deathball. A sport where contestants have to try and get 7 metal Deathballs into the Floor Holes within a maze whose orientation is controlled by the Scientists. Planet Express wins. Though Fry experiences a Loss in the form of 4 other Boyfriends of Colleen. Fry tries to make it work but can’t reconcile it. Especially when Colleen goes from Sorrowful Sobbing to calling to another in Delight. During this the rest of Planet Express explores the Anomaly. Wernstrom attempts to call with a warning but is Hung Up on in the Rudest Fashion possible. The Crack Slam! Shortly after, with fear mounting in the Crew, Bender asks why they have to risk their Lives and why not send in a Robotic Drone. They take him up on the “offer” and he’s sent out. His dismay clear as he warns of the League of Robots. Hermes chews him out claiming they’re not real. As he respectfully state the Importance of the Occasion, Bender then Hard-Flips into telling the Rip and Universe within to bite his shiny metal ass before making Ass-to-Rip contact and flying away with the Crew due to an Electromagnetic Pulse. Visited in the Hospital by Calculon. Bender then decides to become his stalker. After an impressive showing of Delusion, Calculon appoints him his official stalker. Scientific Research of the Rip is traded for Military Action. Fry feels great loneliness after seeing Colleen beating Farnsworth and Wernstrom as Chief of Police. During the celebration/commotion he sneaks abroad the Ship to go away forever. Amy and Kif say their tearful goodbyes. Bender’s Heart is broken at Calculon’s revelation of the nonexistent League of Robots. Farnsworth is beaten to Tears. And Fry sheds tears as he looks on at his planet from the Stowaway Hatch on Zapp Brannigan’s Nimbus. Bender writes a Suicide Note before visiting a Suicide Booth. He falls through a Trap Door and takes the Initiation Test for the League of Robots. Fry makes his way towards the Rip after being ejected from the Ship’s Lint Trap, and Kif is killed in a Tragic Accident due to Zapp’s Incompetence. The crew returns to Amphibios 9 to bury Kif in his Ancestral Petroleum Pool. Having entered the Rip, Fry is Awe-Struck but is also quickly losing oxygen. We go back to Earth. Leela sneaked in the Smelloscope for Farnsworth and Wernstrom so they can examine the anomaly of the Rip while in Prison, which after making a Breakthrough they escape thanks to Farnsworth making a Deal with the Demon Pazuzu in the Past. Granting him a limited wish count to which he only has one left. All the while Bender integrates himself snuggly in the League, quickly building Tension with Calculon. And as Fry runs out of Oxygen he finds a Gigantic Creature who’s Tentacles breach the Barrier and towards Earth (And Assumedly The Entire Universe). A battle ensues, led by a Brannigan remotely operating his ship from an Applebees as our two scientists attempt to shroud the Earth in a Diamonddillium Barrier. The Tentacles Prevail. Expose Fry as scklhis First Convertee. And Fry Evangelizes the Love of the Tentacle. Chaos ensues as citizens are forcefully converted. Fry tries to reason with the Crew with a Tearful Story of the “Monsterpus’s” Billions of Years spent longing for our Universe. Fry is the Pope of this Indestructible Creature’s “Religion”. The Earth is quickly overtaken despite resistance. Pretty soon the only ones left are Leela, Amy, and Zapp. All of this seemingly happening in a matter of Weeks if not Days. Fry even confronts a captured Colleen about her Selfishness before agreeing with her rebuttal and stalwart stance. Then inducting her to the Tentacle as well. Bender helps the trio escape and attempts to hide them in the League of Robots (Literally). But they’re quickly found out and flee. The League begin to mock Bender, Calculon the most. But Bender quickly approaches his former Idol (For Now Former) and challenges him to a duel on the Field of Honor. Evading Capture, the trio find an Abandoned Bootlegger’s Cabin from Soup Prohibition. With Food and Shelter they let their guard down for the night. As Leela sleeps Amy weeps. Zapp soon joins her and through either sheer delusion or utter arrogance he convinces Amy to sleep with him. Leela discovers this the next morning, and as Zapp strokes his ego; he and Amy are taken by the Tentacles. Through her refined reflexes Leela is able to get an opportunity to both escape the Tentacular Grasp and cause the Beast to damage itself. She then takes the flesh and escapes to Planet Express in order to examine it. She makes a revelation before seemingly being captured by Farnsworth. The next day. Fry is the Vessel for the Beast to Speak. Sklhis name is Yivo. A Genderless Being that existed before the Big Bang, dwelling alone it it’s Universe. Sklhe witnessed our creation, and became Instantly Attracted before realizing the Loneliness Sklhe truly felt. And when Fry encountered Sklhim with similar Loneliness. Yivo decided to make contact so they could “Feel each other’s Touch”. However as Yivo was winning the crowd. Leela. SOMEHOW. Had managed to allude Farnsworth and pretend she had received the Tentacle despite the one on her neck Clearly being a Hose. This is honestly the Dumbest Part. Anyway she then reveals that Yivo’s Tentacles are actually Sklher “Gentacles”. Genitalia. This unsurprisingly revolts all who hear. Even Fry, Yivo’s Pope. As he exclaims in disgust with a Tentacle Mouthpiece protruding from his throat. Yivo goes on to explain that at first Sklhe just wanted a Quick and Dirty fling with our Universe. But then professes that all inhabitants of our Universe are sklhis Soulmates. Thank God this Movie just pretends Children don’t exist because those are some Icky Implications that can ruin this Great Movie. Moving On Swiftly. Sklhe proclaims that they’ve done no wrong. Amy refutes blaming Kif’s Death on Yivo. Yivo seems genuinely hurt, before realizing sklhe has the ability to resurrect the Dead. Kif is back, learns of Amy’s Night with Zapp and is hurt. Yivo then asks for another chance with our universe before releasing the Tentacles from our necks and giving us the Agency to pursue relations. The Committee brought together on this vote in majority favor of a Date and we are all shown a Good Time. Meanwhile, Bender and Calculon commence their Duel. With some Badass Ray Cannons that are as devastating as a Powerful Dragon Ball character. Ten paces away from each other then turn around and fire. Classic Duel Rules. Bender however takes only eight before blasting Calculon’s Arm Clean Off. As well as destroying many New New York Buildings, including the Legion’s Lair. Disgusted at Bender’s Conduct and disenfranchised, Calculon quits the Legion and appoints Bender as President . Despite all being in agreement that their date was great, the Yivo Committee agree that no sense of commitment was felt from Yivo. They agree to dump sklhim, and show the class our universe has always tried to show (One Of The Best Lines, Followed By “If There’s One Thing Nixon Is Known For, It’s Class”). Bender wishes to go with Fry and the others to Yivo’s Universe. But when he’s reminded Humans can’t go he’s pushed over the edge. With the Desire to overthrow Humanity but not the Numbers, Bender forfeits his Firstborn in a move so cold it shocked the Robot Devil. Who gave him the Damned Army he needs. They march on the Capital and declare their intent to take over Earth after slaving away for Humanity only for them to neglect spending time with them. This is likely all just Bender’s Motives serving the Army’s Desire but that’s not important as while Bender did all of this. Yivo proposed, and we didn’t have the Heart (Or Integrity Given We Were Won Over With A Comet Sized Wedding Ring Holding A Massive Gem) to say no. So riding upon Golden Escalators. The Mortals are ferried to Heaven as the Robots are left behind. Fry being the last as he says to a pleading Bender, “I’m Sorry Bender, Robots don’t go to Bender”. As he rises all Bender says is “Death to Humans” in a shuddering tone. The Mortals love Yivo’s Heaven, except for Leela who finds it all suspicious. Yivo explains that sklhe projected sklher image into the Minds of our Artists. After some time Leela finds that it may just be all the times her Heart was toyed with on Earth. And just as all was resolved. Bender, spurred on by a Letter sent from Fry, took his Army of the Damned and attempted to take this Heaven for their own. And as the battle between Heaven and the Damned Raged. Fry tried to convince Bender his crusade was a waste of Time. However. This made Yivo take notice of Bender’s Pink Sword. Causing them to realize Fry of all these mortals had broken the One Rule Yivo gave them. To never make contact with another Universe. So mortals were cast out of this Heaven’s Universe. All except for Colleen who managed to make a Truer Connection than Fry in their Eyes. Hostility quickly begins to spread among the Castaways for past transgressions. Bender, the Dread Captain of the Damned, then approaches the main cast. Fry: “Bender, why did you do it? We were all so Happy”. Leela: “And we were in Love!”. Bender: “Pfft, that wasn’t Love!”. Fry: “What!? How can you say that?”. Bender: “Because Bender knows Love, and Love doesn’t share itself with the World! Love is suspicious. Love is needy! Love is fearful. And Love is greedy. My friends there is no Great Love without Great Jealousy!”. Bender than pulls Fry and Leela into a tight, robotic embrace. “I Love You Meatbags!”. And Scene.

Is that not all much more interesting than Big Score? It really doubles down on the Themes established in the first. This is a Conflict of Connection. And in this Highly Connected yet Deeply Isolated Time we live in this is more Relevant now than it’s ever been. And it’s able to cram all these Events and Ruminations in between Snappy Jokes both in dialogue and visuals without feeling bloated. It feels effortless but not directionless which is a Hard Thing to achieve. Granted it can all be ruined if you consider Yivo’s Jammed sklher Gentacles into Kids’ Necks. But there’s a reason that despite kids being in the Previous and Future Movies, there’s none in this. This is a very Adult Story (Hence The Sex Pun Name), but is simple enough for any kid who watches to take away healthy lessons on relationships both Romantic and not. The end also gives me Strong Devilman Vibes with how Biblical and Tragic it is at times. As a kid Fry and Bender’s exchange before Fry left for Heaven gave me Chills. And it still does. “I’m Sorry Bender, Robots don’t go to Heaven” might be one of Billy West’s Bests. Everyone in the Cast and Crew brought their A-Game. And to me at least it really paid off. I didn’t just watch this Movie the most because I owned the DVD. No I Adore This Movie. It’s Casually Profound and I Love It. The seeming aversion to Polyamory can be a bit disheartening to any viewer in One. But Colleen’s Character felt more like a Lesson on how not to be Selfish in Relationships. Seriously though this Movie is Near Flawless to me. The Beginning bounces around a bit and the thought of Kids receiving the Tentacle are the only blemishes on this.

But anyway I’ll leave this Review here for now. Next time I’m gonna tackle “Bender’s Game” and “Into the Wild Green Yonder”. I was gonna do ‘em here but I’ve been writing for Hours now. I hope you guys enjoy reading this, and if you’ve seen these Movies I’d Love to hear your Thoughts. Adios, Meatbags!

Unfortunately not the Scream Project I’ve been cooking for a while now, but it is something Close to my Heart.

Won’t spoil it but I’ll say it’s a Cartoon I’ve Loved my whole life!

If ya didn’t read my Career Review:

Gonna be especially busy in my Real Life this year so my appearances will be semi-sporadic. Especially this summer.

2023 BS has got me emotional, but I’m in the Healthiest Mindset since I started my career.

Got Plans Brewin’

I’m gonna be offline a bit longer than I expected, I want to avoid Scream VI Spoilers. But I love that I’m seeing some Awesome Ghostface Art again. Gonna get more Horror Art done in the meantime.

I’ll leave a question for you guys.

What’s your favorite Scary Movie?

I rate this M so I can write without editing out the cussing I’m gonna be doing. But here it goes.

As anyone whose kept up with my recent News Posts over the past four months know; in November I decided to reveal that I suffered Sexual Abuse as a young child to try and quell the Stupid Fucking Anti-Loli Rhetoric I’ve been hearing ever since I was young. In this case my argument was aimed at the VTuber Community because despite having a warm welcome much like when I started here, I became worried and annoyed at just how willing they were to put people down and call them Pedos for liking an Aesthetic that many of them (Even In The LewdTuber Community) had as their Avatar. I probably could’ve ignored it if I wasn’t already a bit irritated at the childishness I often saw in the community I’d been really happy to step into. Especially with all the stories of predatory behavior I’ve heard already despite not knowing much about VTuber History. I also revealed my Medical Condition of CMT shortly after. I thought I was going to Die. But instead I found a wealth of Fulfillment and Solidarity. As long as some Friends I can really trust.

Why begin this with a situation I’ve talked my Ass Off about a ton already here and on Twitter? Because that was the Start of what I’m considering the 3rd Era of my Art Career. And the end to much of my Inner Turmoil regarding it. So now, I’d like to share my thoughts regarding each Ear, and give ya’ll an Update to my Future Plans.

Era I: Smooth Sailing in Rough Waters

I started my career here on Newgrounds in September of 2019. I had been gearing up to really get the Adult Chapter of my Life going, and after having a great time at a Convention talking to attendees and vendors alike. I felt it was also time I finally start building myself as an Independent Artist. I’ve been obsessed with Creativity and Fiction my entire life, as well as having drawn my entire life and writing on occasion. At first, I was only reviewing other’s work but already people enjoyed my presence. As well as appreciated my Input. I’ve always liked talking to people, and since I have a broad range of interests and experiences I can get along with people of various circles. I like talking, discussing intellectual stuff, dumb jokes, smart jokes, flirtation. I just like Entertaining. And I like people, despite having Firsthand Experience with how awful people can be; I never liked the Idea of completely giving up on people no matter how Angry, Saddened, or Straight Up Disgusted they can make me. I am still surprised at how much kindness I’ve been shown in all my time here. I talked to many people, made some connections, and then realized how Big some of these names were. I had some rough times, including the loss of some pets I cared for, so I decided to take a break. Then COVID hit. While I took a longer break than I expected, I came back and actually started posting my own work on top of commenting and/or reviewing others. I’d been making genuine connections on here, learning a lot, had my First Bit of Internet Weirdness from this Weirdo who made a Weird-Ass News-Post tagging me and others. But I started to believe I was getting a bit Obnoxious and Obsessive. Especially when a Artist I talked to a lot left. I felt responsible for driving them off. Imposter Syndrome really began to set in. I believe I spent my first bit of extended time on Twitter around this time too but I could be wrong (Haven’t Been Able To Get That Far Back. I was still having Fun here and on Twitter. But my OG Fans here definitely know that I wouldn’t shut up about these feelings. I began to really worry about being a nuisance rather then a pleasant presence. And with how much BS was going on in and out of my Life, I fell into a Toxic Trap of Self Loathing. I’ve always had Self Hatred due to my CMT making it difficult for people around me at various points in my Life, despite being shown a lot of Love and having a Pretty Great Life everything considered. Part of why I got so eager with talking to people. And all of this would skyrocket after my Grandfather passed. No matter what progress I made I kept falling back into Overly Criticizing my conduct as an Artist and feeling like I didn’t deserve all the Appreciation shown to me. It’d take a long time to list all the phases I drifted in and out of.

Era II: Repairing, Repeating, Reflecting

This all came to a head in April of 2021. I lost two dogs I loved, both to the Road my parents’ place and my new place are right next to. From this point I took time to both seriously consider the time I spent as an Artist and if I should even continue. Thus the Second Era of my Career began. Where I kept trying to improve what I considered weaknesses in my Conduct and had been getting more Depressed. I did improve in my opinion. But I still felt bad for how prevalent I was. I felt I was becoming an annoyance. And when I couldn’t post pictures on here until I had help from a Friend, I spent more time on my Twitter. To continue posting my Art, give people on here a break from me appearing a lot, and further work through the Issues I had with my Conduct. I was at my most Unhealthy Mindset in this Era. To the point where I had the First Panic Attacks in my Life. In 2022 when I started being on Twitter more, I started to get back in my Groove. And it was much like the Beginning of my Time on Newgrounds. Now by this point I’ve talked to many an Artist. Big, Small, even ones I’ve admired for a Good While. And I also began to tread the VTuber Waters as I’m fascinated by the scene and still want to do it. The Imposter Syndrome that had been building was fading. But my worries on the Responsibility I held now that I’d been getting older and more notable as an Artist had been Plaguing me. But I had been warmly received by the VTuber Community it seemed despite being in Pre-Debut status at the time of writing. I felt like I did when I started again; but doubts, tragedy, and burnout still lingered. Despite it all I was having a lot of Fun. Twitter wasn’t seeming so bad. And to be frank it’s not much different from any other Social Media Site for better and worse. But. Drama over a VTuber Loli Smash or Pass Tierlist began brewing hardcore. After the Internet was just starting to Calm Down from bitching about Rebecca from Edgerunners. When I saw people I’d been talking to weigh in, and mutuals of theirs sharing in the same dumb arguments against Loli Art I’ve heard since I was a kid I Lost What Cool I had left. I’d already been getting annoyed at a lot of this Childishness in VTuber Culture, but given I thought the LewdTubers would be more Self-Aware only to see Hyperbolic Buffoonery there too I reached my Limit. Since it’s never been an Issue here on NG to my Knowledge. I thought I bitched a lot, but being on Twitter definitely showed me how restrained I was. So on November 8th, after seeing this drama build for a few days. After an Emotional Day for me already. I Stated What Thoughts. And instead of getting flamed I was shown support. Seeing as how I wanted this Loli Bitching to end, and was inspired by a friend who was open about her Tramua, I explained how I know what it’s like to be Sexually Victimized from a Young Age. And just because I liked Loli, doesn’t mean I want to inflict that pain on any other person. And I’m sick of all the Moral Grandstanding in the Art World when we always learn of the Real Demons and Victims too late.

Era 3: New Frontiers

And thus we begin the Current Era of my career. I’ve been working on stabilizing my Mindset after that, with the Help of Friends there and my Family IRL. I was, and still am in a sense, drained of patience. I ranted and raved for a bit shortly after while I took a Semi-Hiatus. And through a Series of Serendipitous Connections I made in my mind I reformed my Online Identity. While I can’t change my name on Newgrounds without paying a fee (Which Is Dumb). The redesign and Lore I was fleshing out for my Avatar Character had serendipitously worked with my Outward Angst and various other elements at the time. Too many to list now. So, after rewatching Crybaby and feeling soothed and connected to it all over again. I now call myself Devilman Shotokan. I’ve got a Strong Desire for Conflict and Edgy Delights, but also a Strong Love for Humanity and a Hatred of our Infighting. I’ve settled into all of this remarkably well. And I finally feel like that Imposter Syndrome has faded. But it’s only now in March of 2023 so I feel emotionally healthy again. After what happened I was on Edge. Had a few Big Fights with my Family, even one on Christmas Eve. But after some time to myself, and with Sonic Frontiers’ Story touch on a lot of the Emotions that Course through me in Big Ways (Which Was Released On The Day I Had My “Tantrum”). I felt peace returning to my Soul. I found a lot of comfort in a lot of things around this time. Again too many to list. And had bigger worries anyway. So I finally felt at peace with my Art Career again. Plus there was a lot of Stories that came out since that made me feel Vindicated. From an Anti-Loli VTuber that was outed as an actual Pedo (I Need To Look More Into This One TBH), to Justin Roiland being an Creepy Asshole (Broke My Heart), the Shit that Emi Jones did (I Wish That It Could’ve Just Stayed As Sonic Fucked Emi Instead Of The Story Being Actually She’s An Asshole Who Put A Friend Through Hell Along With Others. This Really Broke My Heart), and all the Harassment of people playing Hogwarts Legacy, especially on the VTuber Side of Streaming. I’m definitely not worried about my conduct or responsibilities now. We’re getting a wake up call on Real Demons, and I hope people will soon put all the Energy they do in Petty Ass Drama into some Actual Causes. Might actually do a lot of Good Things if ya did, ya Assholes.

But yeah, that’s a Super Condensed version of my Career! I’ll probably do another lookover on the actual 4th Anniversary of my Start. But it’ll likely just Flesh Out this review more.

Now on to an Update on things going forward from here. I’ve basically got everything I want/need to do this Year planned out. Both IRL and as an Artist. Starting off with some of the IRL Stuff; I won’t be around much in Late Spring through Summer because I’m going to do a lot of Adult Things I need to get done. I’m gonna practice driving again, help out family with some living arrangements, get my Permit/License, and turn the Front Porch of my place into a Mudroom complete with a Furnace. This Winter got Cold as Hell, and it was really bad when the Cold prevented me from using my Hands too much. So not having to worry about Oil again will be Awesome Next Winter. On the Creative End, I’ve got a lot of things I’d like to get done this Year. I got a List of Drawings I’m working through, got my First Lewd I want to share cooking, and am gearing up to do more Digital Art as well as Traditional. I’m gonna start planning out some projects I’ve put on hold again. And I’d like to start Streaming this year. So I can actually talk and chat to people in a way other than Text in my Artistic Escapades. I’ll be returning to my Roots by reviewing Art on here and Twitter again. As well as various media I’ve experienced. Don’t get me wrong it’s not like this cured all my Issues. But I feel confident in my Future again. And want to continue living this way until I can’t. It’s going to take me a while to get used to people knowing about my pain. I wanted to save revealing the Sexual Trauma especially for when I Retired. I’m not special just because I’ve suffered quite a lot. And there’s plenty of people who had and have it worse than me. And this won’t stop the Pain I have physically and mentally from ever fully fading. It won’t. But I’m ready to start the Adult Chapter of my Life, and spend my 20’s enjoying myself and others. I want to create as long as I can. And I want to learn and experience as much as I can before I die. Making Money from my Work would be Great too, we live well but Money is an Issue for me and my own. Not as bad as it used to be though.

Living Life, Making Art, Meeting People. That’s all I want in Life. I want to Work Harder and Party Hard. And I want my Work to do many things. Entertain, Inspire, and simply Express Myself. I chose to pursue Art because if I can get someone more Pragmatically Useful than myself to keep going. They can Help Others in more tangible ways and make the World better. I also just want to Work for the simple Joy of Creation. Always loved it, always will.

But, that’s about enough on this. I’m ready to get back on Track. Because this World never Relents, so you gotta be Relentless right back at it. I appreciate you all. On here and on Twitter. I’ve gained so much Fulfillment, Self-Respect, and even Friendship doing Art. I’m the closest I’ve been to my Dreams. And despite all the Stress it’s given me, I’m glad it’s played out like this. Hell I just got in my first Internet Arguments EVER in 2022. I’d say I’m doing pretty good. And I Hope Luck shines on all of ya’ll soon. Thank You!

Reread some of my Old News Posts on here, and while I’m still confident in my Verdict. I’ll be doing another, more thorough review of my Newgrounds activity. To go with the Twitter Half of my review. So far it feels like there’s been 3 Major Eras of my Career, the Third of which I’d say started in November after the Twitter Meltdown. Honestly it feels nice to have come this far these soon to be four years. Granted I wish a lot of the IRL BS hadn’t happened, but Art-Wise this was all Necessary Growing Pains. I’m not worried about my responsibilities as an Artist ‘cause I know that if I start slipping ya’ll would call me out. Seriously if I ever get Super Caught Up in these doubts again for no reason I give ya’ll permission to Bitch me out. Newgrounds Followers and Twitter Followers alike! The Ones who know what I’m about anyway. But yeah, I’m mostly just doing this Review now so I can be sure of my Assessment. So I can stop worrying about my conduct as an Artist and Have Fun Expressing Myself to ya’ll again! I’ve got a lot of OGs on NG I especially need to catch up with, but got some budding connections on Twitter too to tend. As well as maintaining IRL Relationships. I feel much healthier in that regard now. And while I still need to keep Healthy Distance At Times, this has helped me out immensely with my Isolation. I feel less of a need to now. From 2016-2019 it was becoming bad, and if I hadn’t decided to reach out after the Con that helped me Really get the Motivation to Start getting my Work and Thoughts out there, I bet it would’ve been much worse. But not only have I gained New Connections, I’ve found the Strength to mend some Old Ones I thought I lost.

Long Story Short: I Appreciate Everything, despite Everything. And after my review, as I said before I started it, I’m done going on about my problems on here unless I really need to. Now it’s time to Focus on my Artistic Goals and having Good Times to find Strength in the Bad. Forging and Strengthening Connections. And getting some Paid Work soon if I can. But mor on that when I return around the 15th.

I’ll be back sometime in March, possibly even April. But when I do I’ll be releasing a Big Meaty Update. I’m not sure how long of a Read it’ll be, but I’m guessing it’ll be a Long Post. I’d really appreciate if ya read through it all the way, it’s gonna be the Culmination of everything I’ve been thinking on in terms of my Creative Conduct. And certain things that’ve gone down as of late have really cemented some things while putting others into question. One Thing’s for sure though. I don’t wanna stop.

Have a Good One people. Stay Safe out there, 2023’s been Wild.

The Eternal Turtle School’s Philosophy:

Move Well, Learn Well, Play Well, Eat Well, and Rest Well.

I’ll see ya guys sometime around the 20th

Hope everybody has a Fun Valentine’s tomorrow, or just a Good Day in general. I won’t be around but I may draw something for the occasion. I’m not super up for it this year but I genuinely hope it’s a Good Time for everyone.

Nothing Major, but I wanted to give me Eyes a rest. Vision’s been a bit blurry, I think it’s ’cause I’ve been drawing a lot on top of a lot of Phone Time. A few days’ rest should fix it.