Not dead, and feeling much better; but with more stuff dropping on my plate. As per usual it seems.

I'll write something a Li'l more substantial later, but I'm not truly returning 'til next year. I got some stuff I'd like to do then though. Nothing Dramatic.

Just some shifts in plans and stuff.

Hope Life's Been Kind To You. or at least you've been rolling with it's punches. Later for now

This Account is on Hiatus for the rest of 2023 to potentially a Full Year for reasons repeated to a tiresome amount throughout. Hope to return as less of a drain on both Followers and any of the Budding Friendships I got.

Hell I’m only writing this as a notice ‘til my return.

While gone I plan to get a lot of Work done while I rebuild my Mojo. If it goes well enough I might even return early. I need to get back to work and a more positive attitude while still being Honest and Edgy. For my Followers, Budding Friendships, and myself.

Not gonna lie. While so far this has been good for my productivity and mental. I already really miss talking to a lotta people both on here and Newgrounds. It’s always been one of my Favorite Parts about all of this.

Later People

To start things off, I just wanted to get this out of the way now. Because I’ve already labeled too many posts as the “Last One” and a Pseudo 4 Year Review.

But i honestly need to do one more reflection on this year in my Life and Career before my BDay.

This Year was one step forward, two back in a lot of ways. It’s not hard to notice if you’ve read these. I’ve been making a lot of steps to improve the pitfalls I’ve had. But I’ve also gotten into some pointless arguments. One where even if I was arguing against the same Pedojacket Shit they were being labeled as, I impulsively and defensively used my SA Trauma in a selfish way. Not like my breakdown in November. I’m not going down that road, especially not after how the SuperMega Shit turned out. Another thing too. I’ve said it before but now I’m REALLY sticking to it: I’ll talk about whatever’s on my mind and News Topic-Type Shit. But especially after a lot of the Stories I’ve talked on this year, I’m straying away from talking about more Interpersonal Dramas unless I really feel the need to say something. That’s not to say I won’t share any supportive comments anymore either, but for One I do want to let people have space, and Two I have gotten a bit too used to commenting on personal hurts people have because I’ve felt them too. It’s led to some fun connections and I definitely still want to reach out and have fun on here while talking shop and getting my own work done. As well as the Art Analysis I did back when I first started. But I definitely need to do better next year about how I use my Socials compared to this.

I’ve made a lot of progress setting up how I want to do things going forward, and have been working on Art still while doing IRL Stuff as well. And I plan to compile all the Non-Informative (Or Writing) NG Posts into a Chronological Document so this place will be cleaned up a bit. I might make that a Habit every few years from now on.

I still got to fix my phone screen, but I’m going to extend my break to extend my Hiatus for possibly the rest of the year. I wanted to be done by Halloween. But I’m not sure, if my Head is doing good around my Birthday I may even stick to that. But I do want to have a lot of Art to show for my absence, and also to get more IRL Shit done. But despite the Slow Improvement I’ve been in the Cycle for way too long now.

So stay safe out there people, but don’t forget to take some time too If I am feeling better I might start lingering around a bit again. But I need some solid time away from this while I get it together.

21 days until I turn 24.

Also a day or two from being in this Indie Art Shit Four Years.

I’m still working on stuff, while trying to keep motivated and not get lazy, with Creative and Practical Obligations. Been finding a lot of Comfort in watching Shit like South Park lately.

If you haven’t yet I highly encourage you to watch the 25th Anniversary Concert, especially after rewatching the Movie it really soothes the Soul man. Think I’ll do a post recommending some of my Favorite Shit I’ve experienced this year.

I’ll see ya’ll when I see ya.

Yo I’m still on Break, but I needed to come back and say this:

More information has come out recently putting much of the Allegations surrounding SuperMega into question, if not straight up falsifying it.

If these revelations are legit. I want to apologize to Matt, Ryan, and Don if they saw my tweet at all. I let my Anger get the Best of me, and legitimately wished Suffering upon ‘em. My Ass should’ve waited, but I let my Rage get the better of me.

My Phone Screen Is Dying. Might be gone a bit longer than expected.

I’ve shared these before, but I love the accidental contrast in these Pieces, and the slight subversion.

Shadow’s being a peaceful shot of him among a Starry Sky.

Sonic’s a piece before conflict, but with a similar peace built from determination.

It’s like Poetry, it Rhymes.

Hope you can forgive this break in the Hiatus, started working on finishing WIPs and I wanted to share this quick observation. Plus I just hate leaving things off on a Sour Note.

Coming Attractions:

Horror Art

Lewd Art

Environmental Art

Art Of Each Skullgirls Character (Fighters)

Fan Art For A Lot Of Series Including:

Sonic

Street Fighter

Hazbin/Helluva Boss

Star Fox/A Fox In Space

Kirby/Kirby Guardian

Scream

Dead by Daylight

FNAF

South Park

Futurama

Family Guy

And A Lot More. Like A LOT

Speaking of more here’s some other Things I got planned:

Art Explosion: A Big Art Dump where I’ll share a bunch of Illustrations of widely varying Tones and Subjects. I’ll be sharing it all at once, and write [ CONTENT WARNING: ] on any especially Edgy Shit I make. Doing this as both a Creative Exercise and a apology for my Whining.

Scream Franchise Retrospective: Covering the Films up to VI, along with some other Ghostface-Adjacent Media like Danny Johnson of Dead by Daylight and the TV Show; this is gonna be my Love Letter to one of my Favorite Franchises.

Devilman Animation Retrospective: Think a blend of the In-Depth Density of the Scream Retrospective with the more casual approach I’ve mentioned. This will cover every Animated Adaptation of Devilman, which I’ve been enjoying my Time with recently.

Shoto’s Album of the Day: Something I’ve already done on Twitter, I want to recommend Albums I enjoy each day I decide to Log In. I’m not very experienced with analyzing Music so this will be a pretty casual affair compared to other writing I’ll be doing.

Illustration Remakes: I want to post Higher Quality Versions of a lot of my Old Art as is. But I feel like Redrawing some pieces would be a lot more Fun! I’ll do this sporadically, much like how I always do my Art anyway. But I’ll try not to do too many Back-to-Back.

Livestreaming: I got a few different Ideas for this but I definitely want to do Streaming sometime soon.

Media Analysis and Retrospectives: From Books to Blockbusters, Albums to Video Games. I definitely want to start that again regularly.

Original Fiction: I’ve got some Ideas, Characters, and Worlds Brewing. But it’ll be a little bit before I really delve into these.

Animation: Once I get the Tools again I’m definitely gonna be Animating a lot.

And much more. There’s a lot of Creative Mediums I want to play in. But I’ll leave it here for now. Any “Coming Attractions” post I make will be marked with the Month and Year it’s released. This one’s just an Improved version of two others, meant to list the Creative Endeavors I’m aiming to work on the next few years so basically it’ll be the Tree the other lists will branch off of.

I deleted the last post because it was the Exact Reason I need to take a break.

Yes it’s good that I’ve recognized my Faults early this year. And I’m glad I’ve been working to make my Boundaries as a Creative/Online Presence clear as possible.

But repeating my Intentions and Reevaluating myself to the same conclusions every time isn’t going to Help. Everything else has been. Getting away from the Unhealthy yet Appreciative Obsession I had towards those who’d helped me through my breakdown and establishing more healthy relationships/boundaries with ‘em. Working on the Art Explosion even if it’s still a WIP. Slowly getting back to Analyzing/Critiquing people’s work. Having a healthier relationship with how I interact with others online in general. Getting stuff done in my Real Life while getting more Time in with Family and Friends. Speaking more openly online about my Thoughts/Experiences.

But. I can’t keep whining about these things as well as more Serious Stuff. Not like I have a lot. I’m not looking to make my Spaces some Hug Box where we don’t talk about Serious Topics, but I’m not looking to make ‘em Hot Take Factories or a Diary of my Personal Issues/Worries or a Trauma-Dumping Ground. And I can’t let Stories of Corruption like I’ve shared this Year keep putting me through the Wringer and making me Reevaluate and Repeat.

So like I said. I want this Year to be the Foundation of how I handle all of this going forward. A Blend of me sharing whatever I make and is on my mind, with talking to people in both Professional and Casual Contexts. I don’t consider everyone I’ve had a Good Interaction with a Friend, but they’re open to the offer. This Whole Joint is me being Honest but Professional on my terms while having Fun and Improving my Craft. That’s the Beauty of Independent Art Creation. For Better and Worse the Responsibility is yours. I appreciate those who’ve stuck around, and I still need to take Time to look back through all my Interactions to both Refamiliarize with some of you and remind myself why despite everything one of my Favorite Parts of all of this is talking to people. So yeah, Stay Safe and Take Care of Yourselves people.

P.S: From now on, unless I really need to update you all on something; I’ll save these types of Posts to actually be Year Reviews. And I’ll also be making an Updated Project List that’ll detail a bunch of Ideas I got for the next few years.

Born and Raised in a small town with some years spent in the City, as of writing I’m in the process of planning out my Adult Life while going with the Flow. And looking for Good Times along the way. Innocent and Otherwise. I Absolutely Love Video Games, Animation, Music and Movies. Also have a strong appreciation for Comics despite my comparatively limited experience with ‘em in Comparison. Love learning about Shit too.

I Started my Indie Journey in 2019 fueled by a Desire to finally Start said Journey and to talk/meet various people across the Globe. It’s mostly been a Fun Ride, but not one without Fuck Ups on my part.

As of August 2023, I’ve been working to get back on track after I reached a Breaking Point in November 2022 that left my Mental State Unstable for a good portion of 2023. I’ll detail it later on in this post because frankly at this point I’m sick of talking about it. But I am feeling better despite it all, and have a lot of Plans I’d like to get to. I’ve got better things to do.

Alrighty Introductions’ out of the way, the rest of this Pin will be personal info about me and my Work. I’ma mostly keep it light for the Vets’ Sake but Long Story Short I’m a guy who’s experienced some of the Best and Worst Life can offer. Which is reflected in my Interests.

Name you can call me: Devilman, Shoto (Usual Go To I’ve Noticed), Ray, Shotokan

Age: 23 going on 24 in September

Sex: Male

Race: A whole lotta White with a Splash of Native American.

Nationality: American

Sexuality: Pansexual

Height: 6”1

Weight: 170-195

I guess the last thing to write before I start the Addendum List is I’m Physically Disabled, but fit enough for ya not to notice unless you knew what to look for. I got a Neuromuscular Disorder known as CMT (Charcot Marie-Tooth). It Fucks with my Nervous System among other Shit.

Neo Addendum Prime 1: Content Warning: I like Edgy Stuff, sometimes Real Edgy. I Like Horror, I Like Hentai (Guro And Loli Included). I Hope the Devilman in my name is a good indicator of that; just know that when ya follow me, you might see some Explicit Shit. (Name Is Devilman Shotokan On Twitter, Thinking Of Changing It On Here Too But Need To Become A Supporter On Here)

Neo Addendum Prime 2: When it comes to Al Art and NFTs/Crypto, l'm highly skeptical of a lot of it but can see some Potential too. In fact I regret how I fell into Blindly Hating NFTs for a bit. Though I'm not above Jokes about 'em.

Neo Addendum Prime 3: I've always been a guy who tries to blend being Carefree with being Serious about Life. And while I've been through a lot I've had just as much if not more Good in my Life. I also believe in being able to Joke about anything while being Respectful.

Neo Addendum P4: I enjoy talking to people, whether it's Dry and Scholarly to Wacky and Flirtatious. That said, I'm taking things on here a bit more Seriously for now. I had a habit of falling into Negative Parasocial Tendencies in the past that I want to tame while staying Open.

Neo Addendum Prime 5: While I try to keep it to a Minimum, if I get into an Argument on here at all I ask any followers of mine to let me handle it. I'm open to Support and Advice, but unless I state otherwise I'd like to handle all aspects of my

"Career" myself. From Work to PR Shit.

Neo Addendum Prime 6: I plan to make Art in a Wide Range of Tone. From Innocent to Depraved, Escapist to Confrontational. I'll do my Best to put proper Content Warnings when needed, but Hopefully in a way that doesn't ruin any Narrative Flow. (I’m Now Of The Mindset To Where I’ll Mark Work Like This With A [CW], And Have A Page Listing Potential Triggers If It’s Long-Form Work Like Comics Or Written Work)

Neo Addendum Prime 7: I'm not one who believes anyone needs to Police their followers, but nevertheless we do have a Responsibility towards our Fans. To any fan of mine under 18, l ask that you not Interact with any Lewd work I produce or share (Either Intentionally Or Not). Horror’s ok as long as it doesn’t deal with Sexually Explicit Things.

Neo Addendum Prime 8: Adding to the Last Point, I do plan on making both Twitter Alts and possibly Webpages dedicated purely for uploading Work of mine. Both SFW and NSFW. If you just want to see my Art til then I suggest my Newgrounds. Better Content Filtering there imo.

Neo Addendum Prime 9: I plan on streaming in the Future, Near Future Hopefully, but I don't see that becoming a Serious Gig for me even with the VTuber Aspirations I got. I'd consider that more Hobbyist and a way to Chat/Socialize in a more Tangible Way than Text.

Neo Addendum Prime 10: While I'd like to handle my Work myself as much as possible, and I'm not looking for or even really accepting Help right now. I'm always down to talk Shop. And am eager for feedback on the Art I produce.

Neo Addendum Prime 11: As of August 2023 l'm still looking into various ways to get pay for my Work I'm Comfortable with. I'm not looking to Rip anyone off and I want to really make sure I Trust the method I pick. l've got a few options now, but am still making sure I like 'em.

Neo Addendum Prime 12: I have No Consistent Schedule for the most part. And sometimes I need to take Time to myself even in my Personal Life. Especially since 2020. So I'll try my Best to stick to any plans I make but don't be surprised if they change.

Neo Addendum Prime 13: These Addendums Sound Like

RPG Names)

I'm building the Lore around my Avatar, and there's bits in some of the Art Descriptions. And I definitely will use him as my VTuber Model when I start that.

But note that while I'll speak "In-Character" at times that’s exceptionally rare.

Neo Addendum Prime 14: I guess to bridge of of 13, RP is a thing I do Rarely. Like I said I'm me. Not against RP or anything and in fact want to get into Tabletop again, but in terms of my Online Presence I'd mainly like to stick with Talkin' and Workin'.

Neo Addendum Prime 15: l've got limits as to what I accept and want to see, but when it comes to Art I hate people dictating what can be made and Demonizing Artists for creating. Especially with how Fucked things truly are IRL. Instead of complaining, use that Energy to actually Help People. (Note: Critique And Harsh Criticism Isn’t What I’m Talking About)

Neo Addendum Prime 16: Main Goals:

Make What I Want. Innocent or Depraved, Escapist or Confrontational.

Meet Interesting People. Maybe even make some friends.

Help out others with my Work or my Words.

Hopefully inspiring them to help people in ways I can't.

Create for the Fuck of it,

Have Fun!

Neo Addendum Prime 17: I hesitate to even bring this up because my god l'm bored thinking of it frankly and prior to this any vets of mine have heard me Bitch way too much

(IMO) about it. But l've got some Baggage to say the least.

Neurological Disease CMT.

Stroke stemming from CMT + more.

Rape. Deaths of Loved Ones. Despite all of that I've had a Very Good Life.

Luckily a fairly "standard" one for most Americans too. The CMT is definitely the Biggest Obstacle for me and always will be. But while I can get pretty disheartened and depressed, especially since the 2020’s have been Hard for everyone. i'm pretty good at picking myself up. Sad gets Old.

Neo Addendum Prime 18: Made a lotta new connections as of Late, some budding friendships as well! I Really Appreciate It, but I'm afraid of making some Peeps feel Ignored. Especially in the VTuber Community since I'm settling in on Predebut-Standby.

Please. Feel Free to Reach Out!

Neo Addendum Prime 19: You're gonna have to Forgive me if I've forgotten Interactions we've had. I'm a Very Busy Man IRL and Art-Wise. Got a lotta plates spinning as I try to balance even more. Narrowing my Focus a bit but l'm still just a Mortal. Just like with my IRL Friends and Family tho, it usually just takes a bit of Talking to spark those Memories. (This Shit Sounds So Conceited)

Well this is most of the Important Information I had in my previous Twitter Pins. This News Post will be updated in the Future as well, both with the Rest of what I’ve had written and anything I feel I need to add in the Future. It’s August 16, 2023 at the Time I’ve rewritten this. My Mindset has be rearranging, rebuilding, and remembering itself for this whole year. I definitely feel more stable than I was, and honestly this year feels like I’ve been reviewing and prepping for the Future. While trying to keep motivation and positivity in a pretty hard year, after some Hard Years in a Row. It definitely hasn’t been all Doom and Gloom though, and I’ve let setbacks postpone my plans too often in my Career.

So, welcome to my Chaos. Hope it suits you well enough.